it's 6 am and i cannot sleep. i feel like i did the night before the first day back at school, or christmas, or my birthday, or a day i had to make a huge change in my life... untold excitements waiting just around the bend. maybe it's because i'm getting paid, or because i'm going to california, or because i can't wait to be with luke 24/7 again. i don't know why, but it's annoying because once again it's freaking 6 am and i would like to sleep. my bones and ligaments ache with anticipation.
on a completely separate note, i had a dream this morning kind of a day dream of sorts because it is when the power was out and i sat with the cats and tried to win at a staring contest but ended up getting so ungodly bored that i dozed off... but anyways; i dreamt my crooked tooth fell out and i was so excited because i somehow knew my teeth would just fix themselves easily now that that bastard was gone. before i graduated and went to college i had a dream all my teeth fell out and into my hair and i put them in baggies, this dream was a depiction for my fear of losing my youth. i had this dream at least 20 times. the fact that my most recent dream was only one tooth and the tooth that caused my smashed smile intrigues me. hmm