I'm here to vent while hiding, please listen
i'm finding it's true that you always fall for the ones you either can't have or the ones that are just bad news... i am falling in the trap of both at this moment... which is odd, cuz i like two people, hell i hardly ever like anyone let alone two at once... shit
so one is devistatingly beautiful, the other is well bad news for me. and they're both great. mr. devistating is fun, exciting, hilarious and great to be around. mr. bad news is smart, intellectual and amazing.
the only reason why i'm sure i like these two fools is because everytime i'm around them to be perfectly honest i just want to kiss him... hug... just be close to. i never want a single one of the conversations to end
and then on top of that i have this other guy who has been after me for ages, and i feel bad, i don't like him like he likes me and i've thought i've made that clear... i dunno, perhaps i'm hard to read, perhaps i'm too much of a push over
mr. bad news is great to talk to, we complete eachothers sentences, and like all the same shit. mr. devistating is kind of the same, and when we have serious conversations (to semi quote fight club) he really listens instead of just waiting for his turn to talk... and that makes me feel real and important... but he's beautiful, so he would never go for me, plus he's a good friend and i would not want to lose that, but that doesn't change the fact that i just want to jump him, or just be able to kiss him when i feel so inclined... . and then there's mr. bad news, we have a bit of history and all i can think of is how great of a kisser he is and how much i want to go back to watching movies and just cuddling.
i dont' know man... if anyone has any advice or just sympathy, please by all means shoot it my way
so one is devistatingly beautiful, the other is well bad news for me. and they're both great. mr. devistating is fun, exciting, hilarious and great to be around. mr. bad news is smart, intellectual and amazing.
the only reason why i'm sure i like these two fools is because everytime i'm around them to be perfectly honest i just want to kiss him... hug... just be close to. i never want a single one of the conversations to end
and then on top of that i have this other guy who has been after me for ages, and i feel bad, i don't like him like he likes me and i've thought i've made that clear... i dunno, perhaps i'm hard to read, perhaps i'm too much of a push over
mr. bad news is great to talk to, we complete eachothers sentences, and like all the same shit. mr. devistating is kind of the same, and when we have serious conversations (to semi quote fight club) he really listens instead of just waiting for his turn to talk... and that makes me feel real and important... but he's beautiful, so he would never go for me, plus he's a good friend and i would not want to lose that, but that doesn't change the fact that i just want to jump him, or just be able to kiss him when i feel so inclined... . and then there's mr. bad news, we have a bit of history and all i can think of is how great of a kisser he is and how much i want to go back to watching movies and just cuddling.
i dont' know man... if anyone has any advice or just sympathy, please by all means shoot it my way