hello there the angel from my nightmare
so not much is new, no new word on anything really.
there is something that is bothering me as of late... i'm not the kind of friend i want to be. i mean don't get me wrong here, i am i totally am, but no one really seems to know... well ashlee does and i think maybe on a smaller level dana... but i don't know what i'm really getting at here, cuz it makes complete sense in my head but when i try and think of how to explain it, it's just seeming to fall short and i would even probably misinterpret it if i read it so i'm just going to stop there
i woke up this morning a reck, and all day i have been a reck... i feel like there should be a camera crew following me around just waiting to jump out and say "just kidding, this is all one big joke" but i really have been looking behind me and checking behind the shower curtain and there is no one there, not even a camera. i'm just a ball of nerves, i'm worried and anxious, and this small almost nonexsitant problem of ocd is starting to show itself to me, and i'm not saying that i have ocd but i'm defently exibiting some symtoms... which you know it does run in the family but psh.
the whole finding a job thing is really tough... and it doesn't help that i'm afraid to go into wausau to look cuz i fear my tires while disconnect themselves from my car whilst driving it, and to get the money to fix that i need a job and to get to that job i need a car... see my problem here? though my dad swears the tires are fine to drive on yet, i know how it feels to drive and it is not feeling the same, it is way loose and just not right... i can tell
rich came by today to get his stuff, and my dad kind of just threw his old room into my lap, telling me to go out to my car and get my things and start organizing... which you know is nice that he's helping me out but after i realized things i decided i did not want to move in with my dad, but those things are now few and pretty much far between, so i just hope it stays that way... which i know what will help a whole lot, if his good old "friend" bud stays the fuck away
there is something that is bothering me as of late... i'm not the kind of friend i want to be. i mean don't get me wrong here, i am i totally am, but no one really seems to know... well ashlee does and i think maybe on a smaller level dana... but i don't know what i'm really getting at here, cuz it makes complete sense in my head but when i try and think of how to explain it, it's just seeming to fall short and i would even probably misinterpret it if i read it so i'm just going to stop there
i woke up this morning a reck, and all day i have been a reck... i feel like there should be a camera crew following me around just waiting to jump out and say "just kidding, this is all one big joke" but i really have been looking behind me and checking behind the shower curtain and there is no one there, not even a camera. i'm just a ball of nerves, i'm worried and anxious, and this small almost nonexsitant problem of ocd is starting to show itself to me, and i'm not saying that i have ocd but i'm defently exibiting some symtoms... which you know it does run in the family but psh.
the whole finding a job thing is really tough... and it doesn't help that i'm afraid to go into wausau to look cuz i fear my tires while disconnect themselves from my car whilst driving it, and to get the money to fix that i need a job and to get to that job i need a car... see my problem here? though my dad swears the tires are fine to drive on yet, i know how it feels to drive and it is not feeling the same, it is way loose and just not right... i can tell
rich came by today to get his stuff, and my dad kind of just threw his old room into my lap, telling me to go out to my car and get my things and start organizing... which you know is nice that he's helping me out but after i realized things i decided i did not want to move in with my dad, but those things are now few and pretty much far between, so i just hope it stays that way... which i know what will help a whole lot, if his good old "friend" bud stays the fuck away