inside i sit and wonder, with the light on
well i'm here at my dad's, where i'm not suppose to be, you see i got 'kicked out' cuz i'm some sort of horrible person... and i don't know... he made some valid points and now that they have been brought to my attention i will surely work on them, but come on, kick me out? it just upsets me a whole lot...but whatever... he's up north with jim for the weekend, i'll be here when he gets back and we can talk and reasure him that i lied and there is nothing that would stop me from going to his funeral, no matter what happens... and i hope it's no time soon this funeral of his
a person that i would consider a friend of mine is not doing all too well... he's not your average friend, i meet him at denny's cuz he's there all the time and he was goign to fix my car... and the more i talked to him the more i enjoyed his company... i looked forward to going to denny's cuz i pretty much knew he would be there BUT not anymore, he went and took 200 and some misc. pills and laid himself on the kitchem floor and tried to let himself die, well he now lays in the ICU at the wausau hospital where no one but immediate family can see him. i was thinking of pretending to be his daughter or something and go see him, cuz he could always make me smile, so maybe i could try and make him smile. but apparently he's going to be going to a state mental institute for a good fifteen years that is if he's lucky... unlucky option being jail. but this really makes me very sad and i don't like it one bit
um i do i have to let you know that right now the cat is acting very strange... he's sitting by me and looking at me to pet him... this is very unlike brutis... he's a loner and only needs you when he wants food or treats... but i already gave him treats and he's all cuddling up to my feet, i'm super confused
crying is so strange... i can't seem to do it, anyone else would be bawling like a baby, but i get like misty and one tears falls swiftly down my cheek but beyond that i am tapped out. and i want to cry, maybe it would make me feel better, let some frustration out or something, but i don't know whats wrong with me
i don't know though, there are things i could say, and there are things i could do... i just have some things to do before i give up... cuz as the really nice lady that andy and andy are convinced is a stripper (which she defently could be...) now i paraphrasing here but 'make up your mind, you either do it and stop fucking with everyone or suck it up and go on'
a person that i would consider a friend of mine is not doing all too well... he's not your average friend, i meet him at denny's cuz he's there all the time and he was goign to fix my car... and the more i talked to him the more i enjoyed his company... i looked forward to going to denny's cuz i pretty much knew he would be there BUT not anymore, he went and took 200 and some misc. pills and laid himself on the kitchem floor and tried to let himself die, well he now lays in the ICU at the wausau hospital where no one but immediate family can see him. i was thinking of pretending to be his daughter or something and go see him, cuz he could always make me smile, so maybe i could try and make him smile. but apparently he's going to be going to a state mental institute for a good fifteen years that is if he's lucky... unlucky option being jail. but this really makes me very sad and i don't like it one bit
um i do i have to let you know that right now the cat is acting very strange... he's sitting by me and looking at me to pet him... this is very unlike brutis... he's a loner and only needs you when he wants food or treats... but i already gave him treats and he's all cuddling up to my feet, i'm super confused
crying is so strange... i can't seem to do it, anyone else would be bawling like a baby, but i get like misty and one tears falls swiftly down my cheek but beyond that i am tapped out. and i want to cry, maybe it would make me feel better, let some frustration out or something, but i don't know whats wrong with me
i don't know though, there are things i could say, and there are things i could do... i just have some things to do before i give up... cuz as the really nice lady that andy and andy are convinced is a stripper (which she defently could be...) now i paraphrasing here but 'make up your mind, you either do it and stop fucking with everyone or suck it up and go on'