today
Real name: Jessica Solano
Yeah that’s who I was when I was born! From the time I came out the pussy till I was 14! Sica came about when I was getting my FIRST tattoo! The guy doing it had an ex girlfriend names Jessica and when they broke up he covered up the JES in the tattoo he had on his chest! “I was sica that bitch” he said then Hannah said I’m sick of you and it just stuck since then.
I am an asshole and that is no lie. I’m not sensitive to anyone’s feelings! I don’t think before I speak because I believe that your first thoughts are what were meant to be said! I have ruined a lot of friendships this way but then again love and friendship is not forever so why let it ruin my day. I am very egocentric and I have every right to be! I am always right and I do everything better than anyone I know so it’s ok! Its no lie that I am stubborn and bitter and I won’t say I am not! I do think I am better than a lot of people but that just comes with being egocentric! Right?
I have matured a lot in the past 6 years! People who have been around for them and stuck with me thanks! People who got pissed off because I did something or did not matured in to what you wanted me to be well fuck you! Ill spit in your face! 7 years ago I was about 60 pounds heavier and wore all black all the time and thought hot topic was the place to shop!
5 years ago I thought I was a skin head punk because I dated one and that’s who I was around. I would be rude to people who were not white or Mexican just so I would feel superior to them. I hated everyone and would not give anyone a chance. I hated god and believed in science. I would drink anything and everything for the buzz feeling. I would tell out windows and start shit just to see a fight. I went to local shows every weekend. Luxt, shortie, THIZZ, and pot ruled my whole world. 5 years ago was the first time I fell in love and since then I just keep doing it! 5 years ago I was a racist, rude, loud, and bitchy punk kid! 5 years ago I was a punk/metal kid who would not miss a luxt show if my life depended on it! I had the best friends that anyone could have! Blood, tears and black eyes is what we all went through and we made it through it all.
4 years ago I felt on top of the world. I was a senior in high school, officer in FFA, and 18 years old! I could do what I want, when I want and what ever I want! I had to learn the hard way that it was not really like that its just what I had in my head. I left my first love for a younger and better looking punk rock kid. My world still revolved around music, tattoos, piercing Shows, my boyfriend and drinking was all I needed in my life.
3 years ago it was still Punk rock love at its finest but that did not last long. After a miscarriage, nights and days of fights, and lots of sex he said good bye! Devastated was not even a word at the time that I could use to describe how I felt. In college and not knowing what the fuck I was there for. All I knew was that I had to be there because it was expected of me. At this time sex, drugs, music, tattoos and my truck was my life! Again I thought at that time that that’s all I needed in life and I would make it through. I found PETA and followed them like a Mormon follows god. I became a vegetarian!
2 years ago I was the chubby girl with the short crazy colored hair with the wild make up. I was the girl who would spit in your face just because I did not like your shoes. I was the girl who would drive 80 on the freeway in a truck that could break down at anytime. I was the girl that would make out with girls for fun and not think twice about it. No boyfriend to worry about and nothing to stop me from doing what ever I wanted. I was the college kid who loved to party and drink and have casual sex and booty calls.
1 year ago I was a punk rock/emo / HxC kid! I wore ballerina shoes with short skirts and tights. Emo jeans and wild make up! I sat in my room and made things while on drugs. I could drink anyone under the table or at least I would try and not succeed. I would pop pain pills like it was nothing! I was at the point where norco did nothing and my body cried for oxy cotton. Hennessy , Wild turkey and Oxy cotton twice a week and horrible hangovers where I would say I wont every do that again till Friday came around and I was back with the bottle in my hand. Meet a lot of fake people who I thought were amazing but It was just the drugs and booze that was in my system that made them cool. Meet one of the coolest bitches in my life. Always there to talk to and had my back no matter what. I was in love. He came back in to my life. A weird, crazy and punk rock kid! I would have never given him the light of day if it was not for the booze. It started drunk and kept going sober. He made me feel like the only girl in the world when we were alone but in front of people we were just best friends! Best friends a word that he used a lot. After fights, car accidents, miscarriage, and lots of jealously it ended. Then I Fell for the girl who was like the forbidding apple. Each picture and kiss was like the poison that would do me in. She was worse than a rollercoaster not only did she make me sick but made my emotions go up, down, and sideways! I thought it was love but in reality it was lust! She was something I knew I could not have so I wanted her so bad. She was there to do the pills and the Booze with me so the trouble just multiplied by a million! Stepped my game up to a 2005 malibu and thought I was the hardest bitch in the world. I was a gangster son! I did not need to claim any gang to be hard but I was hard by my self and did not need a gang to back me up. I started going to church and learned about religion. Decided that I would attend Catholic church and maybe one day get baptize! Mac dre, oxy cotton, coke, Hennessey, valume, sex and Vallejo was all I needed in my life.
Today well I’m still meeh! I just happen to be a mixture of all the years. I won’t spit in your face but I will stab you. I’m still down for some booze, some drugs and tattoos. I grew out the hair and removed some of the piercings. I will still run up on anyone and talk shit for no reason. I accept people for who they are not by their skin colors. I will still call ANYONE a spick, nigger, Jew, chink or whop and not feel bad! I will still tell you what it is and not care if it hurts your feelings. I’m in love with the wrong person again. I will do anything for him just because I do love him and I thought I had a chance. It’s like a bad dream from last year almost! I don’t party as much but when the chance comes up and the right people will be there you will find me there. Still in tight jeans and ballerina shoes or maybe even straight legs and some Jordans. More tattoos than ever but still able to cover them when I don’t want them to be seen! Again meet some of the fakest people in my life that I could care less if they were dead or not! I will still do my sica dance at a show or go dumb in a car! All in All I have not changed I’m just trying to make it in life! I’m trying to finish school! I’m trying to make good money because I need to grow up and I owe my mom my life. I’m trying to find the right guy who will love me as much as I love them and not just play games and leave meeh heart broken! I’m still egocentric and I’m always right.
Yeah that’s who I was when I was born! From the time I came out the pussy till I was 14! Sica came about when I was getting my FIRST tattoo! The guy doing it had an ex girlfriend names Jessica and when they broke up he covered up the JES in the tattoo he had on his chest! “I was sica that bitch” he said then Hannah said I’m sick of you and it just stuck since then.
I am an asshole and that is no lie. I’m not sensitive to anyone’s feelings! I don’t think before I speak because I believe that your first thoughts are what were meant to be said! I have ruined a lot of friendships this way but then again love and friendship is not forever so why let it ruin my day. I am very egocentric and I have every right to be! I am always right and I do everything better than anyone I know so it’s ok! Its no lie that I am stubborn and bitter and I won’t say I am not! I do think I am better than a lot of people but that just comes with being egocentric! Right?
I have matured a lot in the past 6 years! People who have been around for them and stuck with me thanks! People who got pissed off because I did something or did not matured in to what you wanted me to be well fuck you! Ill spit in your face! 7 years ago I was about 60 pounds heavier and wore all black all the time and thought hot topic was the place to shop!
5 years ago I thought I was a skin head punk because I dated one and that’s who I was around. I would be rude to people who were not white or Mexican just so I would feel superior to them. I hated everyone and would not give anyone a chance. I hated god and believed in science. I would drink anything and everything for the buzz feeling. I would tell out windows and start shit just to see a fight. I went to local shows every weekend. Luxt, shortie, THIZZ, and pot ruled my whole world. 5 years ago was the first time I fell in love and since then I just keep doing it! 5 years ago I was a racist, rude, loud, and bitchy punk kid! 5 years ago I was a punk/metal kid who would not miss a luxt show if my life depended on it! I had the best friends that anyone could have! Blood, tears and black eyes is what we all went through and we made it through it all.
4 years ago I felt on top of the world. I was a senior in high school, officer in FFA, and 18 years old! I could do what I want, when I want and what ever I want! I had to learn the hard way that it was not really like that its just what I had in my head. I left my first love for a younger and better looking punk rock kid. My world still revolved around music, tattoos, piercing Shows, my boyfriend and drinking was all I needed in my life.
3 years ago it was still Punk rock love at its finest but that did not last long. After a miscarriage, nights and days of fights, and lots of sex he said good bye! Devastated was not even a word at the time that I could use to describe how I felt. In college and not knowing what the fuck I was there for. All I knew was that I had to be there because it was expected of me. At this time sex, drugs, music, tattoos and my truck was my life! Again I thought at that time that that’s all I needed in life and I would make it through. I found PETA and followed them like a Mormon follows god. I became a vegetarian!
2 years ago I was the chubby girl with the short crazy colored hair with the wild make up. I was the girl who would spit in your face just because I did not like your shoes. I was the girl who would drive 80 on the freeway in a truck that could break down at anytime. I was the girl that would make out with girls for fun and not think twice about it. No boyfriend to worry about and nothing to stop me from doing what ever I wanted. I was the college kid who loved to party and drink and have casual sex and booty calls.
1 year ago I was a punk rock/emo / HxC kid! I wore ballerina shoes with short skirts and tights. Emo jeans and wild make up! I sat in my room and made things while on drugs. I could drink anyone under the table or at least I would try and not succeed. I would pop pain pills like it was nothing! I was at the point where norco did nothing and my body cried for oxy cotton. Hennessy , Wild turkey and Oxy cotton twice a week and horrible hangovers where I would say I wont every do that again till Friday came around and I was back with the bottle in my hand. Meet a lot of fake people who I thought were amazing but It was just the drugs and booze that was in my system that made them cool. Meet one of the coolest bitches in my life. Always there to talk to and had my back no matter what. I was in love. He came back in to my life. A weird, crazy and punk rock kid! I would have never given him the light of day if it was not for the booze. It started drunk and kept going sober. He made me feel like the only girl in the world when we were alone but in front of people we were just best friends! Best friends a word that he used a lot. After fights, car accidents, miscarriage, and lots of jealously it ended. Then I Fell for the girl who was like the forbidding apple. Each picture and kiss was like the poison that would do me in. She was worse than a rollercoaster not only did she make me sick but made my emotions go up, down, and sideways! I thought it was love but in reality it was lust! She was something I knew I could not have so I wanted her so bad. She was there to do the pills and the Booze with me so the trouble just multiplied by a million! Stepped my game up to a 2005 malibu and thought I was the hardest bitch in the world. I was a gangster son! I did not need to claim any gang to be hard but I was hard by my self and did not need a gang to back me up. I started going to church and learned about religion. Decided that I would attend Catholic church and maybe one day get baptize! Mac dre, oxy cotton, coke, Hennessey, valume, sex and Vallejo was all I needed in my life.
Today well I’m still meeh! I just happen to be a mixture of all the years. I won’t spit in your face but I will stab you. I’m still down for some booze, some drugs and tattoos. I grew out the hair and removed some of the piercings. I will still run up on anyone and talk shit for no reason. I accept people for who they are not by their skin colors. I will still call ANYONE a spick, nigger, Jew, chink or whop and not feel bad! I will still tell you what it is and not care if it hurts your feelings. I’m in love with the wrong person again. I will do anything for him just because I do love him and I thought I had a chance. It’s like a bad dream from last year almost! I don’t party as much but when the chance comes up and the right people will be there you will find me there. Still in tight jeans and ballerina shoes or maybe even straight legs and some Jordans. More tattoos than ever but still able to cover them when I don’t want them to be seen! Again meet some of the fakest people in my life that I could care less if they were dead or not! I will still do my sica dance at a show or go dumb in a car! All in All I have not changed I’m just trying to make it in life! I’m trying to finish school! I’m trying to make good money because I need to grow up and I owe my mom my life. I’m trying to find the right guy who will love me as much as I love them and not just play games and leave meeh heart broken! I’m still egocentric and I’m always right.