OMG its back again
Quick folks, what time is it? 1:53am EST! What does that mean...I only post on lj in the middle of the night when I can't sleep. I fell asleep when I got home today at 6:30, then went to dinner, then came home and slept again until 12. I knew that was a bad idea, but I just couldn't keep my eyes open. And now I can't close them. I keep thinking about work and Grenada, and all the things that I cannot control.
We move in about 4 months. Seriously. Shit. I don't have any student loans approved yet because the do-nothing people at SGU can't manage to get off of their ass and send me the financial aid package. that is very frustrating. Additionally, I dont have an apartment or plane tickets or anything else. Also very scary. I suppose this week I will work on all of that. This has been done before. I am not the first person to move to the Caribbean to go to school and I will not be the last. I just wonder if I am the right kind of student to move to the caribbean, because we all know what a ridiculous worrier I am. I don't handle change well and I am not a pick-up-and-go kind of person. I also wish someone would just tell me what to do, but I am an adult now, and I have to learn to make my own choices and decisions. Sometimes I know it would just be easier if all my bills were paid for me, people told me where to move and when to get things ready and I had a nice list of the things that I have to do before I go. People in hell want ice water.
I also have to get rid of the majority of my earthly belongings. Dishes, clothing, sheets, junk, chairs, pots and pans, coffee makers, toasters, lamps, books, shoes, cat accessories. I should start now.
I feel lost today. I feel like I don't know anything, like I will be a terrible veterinarian and always feel overwhelmed. I don't like feeling overwhelmed. I don't like feeling out of control.
I have got to learn to cope.
We move in about 4 months. Seriously. Shit. I don't have any student loans approved yet because the do-nothing people at SGU can't manage to get off of their ass and send me the financial aid package. that is very frustrating. Additionally, I dont have an apartment or plane tickets or anything else. Also very scary. I suppose this week I will work on all of that. This has been done before. I am not the first person to move to the Caribbean to go to school and I will not be the last. I just wonder if I am the right kind of student to move to the caribbean, because we all know what a ridiculous worrier I am. I don't handle change well and I am not a pick-up-and-go kind of person. I also wish someone would just tell me what to do, but I am an adult now, and I have to learn to make my own choices and decisions. Sometimes I know it would just be easier if all my bills were paid for me, people told me where to move and when to get things ready and I had a nice list of the things that I have to do before I go. People in hell want ice water.
I also have to get rid of the majority of my earthly belongings. Dishes, clothing, sheets, junk, chairs, pots and pans, coffee makers, toasters, lamps, books, shoes, cat accessories. I should start now.
I feel lost today. I feel like I don't know anything, like I will be a terrible veterinarian and always feel overwhelmed. I don't like feeling overwhelmed. I don't like feeling out of control.
I have got to learn to cope.