die bitch die
I don't know what to do anymore... like a month ago I did a really bad thing... I made out with a guy at Mya's birthday party... god I was drunk and not one person there tried to stop it until it was too late... and yeh... I was the drunken asshole that made out with another boy... so told Jacob and he forgave me... he's so great... and now he seems totally mad at me b/c me and Rachel are going to NY to see TJ...I love this boy...I know deep down I do... but I don't know about it anymore... he doens't really show stuff like he use to... he use to email me all the time and now it's only like four or five instead of like twenty... god... i hate my fucking life.