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What a fucking shithead I hate him so much. He's a lazy bastard....and he makes me feel like I have no reason behind my feelings. I felt so powerless, but not anymore. I don't give a fuck what any of you say...all of you who tell me to stay with him, or think that I'm the bitch to him. You don't see what happens behind closed doors. You're not privy to the arguements. You are in no way connected to my heart and cannot feel the strain it is under. I'm not living up to anyone's expectations for MY love life. I cannot take it anymore. I cannot take the mutual abuse. I cannot take the empty heart I have had for two weeks. I cannot take feeling numb. FUCK THIS.