It's been awhile...
Wow. Well that was my impression reading over some of my latest entries. It's been well over a year since i last posted. It's funny just reading the past and seeing how it made everything turned out. Stuff that doesnt seem to be such of a big deal now was such a big deal back then. But reading my old posts makes me understand myself alot better and i am my own bestfriend, as awkward as that sounds. So i will begin to update.... Where do i start? whats important enough that i should write in here? ill start..
Well about a year and a half ago. I moved upstairs in the apartment with my friend sean. At first it was a big deal but now well it kinda sucks. I didnt do much in this last year and a half. So many things to say yet i dont know what to say. So yea i moved up here i pay bills pay for everything 100% independent. I'm still working as a PCA i hate it, well i dont hate it but i just woosh i had a diffrent job, but i need it to pay for bills ><.
Im going to start a new section. My head has been a mess lately. I really just ended up hating my life. i hate how everything turned out. nothing nothing i tell u went good for me. I deserved so much more. Life here isnt helping. My dad is a mess. My mom is a mess(long story). and mainly im a mess. I hate how i have to go back and read soem of my posts and 90% of them is me complaining about how my life sucks and 2 years later im doing the same thing. I dont know what i can do for myself to get me to wake up everyday and love life. I hate life. Everything is becoming so tasteless. i started skateboarding again it helps but its just not as fun when i was youner. Yea sure maybe its because ive grown up. But when nothing is fun and everythign seems so tasteless whats the point of growing up. I dont want to go to college get out and work the rest of my life.
Well about a year and a half ago. I moved upstairs in the apartment with my friend sean. At first it was a big deal but now well it kinda sucks. I didnt do much in this last year and a half. So many things to say yet i dont know what to say. So yea i moved up here i pay bills pay for everything 100% independent. I'm still working as a PCA i hate it, well i dont hate it but i just woosh i had a diffrent job, but i need it to pay for bills ><.
Im going to start a new section. My head has been a mess lately. I really just ended up hating my life. i hate how everything turned out. nothing nothing i tell u went good for me. I deserved so much more. Life here isnt helping. My dad is a mess. My mom is a mess(long story). and mainly im a mess. I hate how i have to go back and read soem of my posts and 90% of them is me complaining about how my life sucks and 2 years later im doing the same thing. I dont know what i can do for myself to get me to wake up everyday and love life. I hate life. Everything is becoming so tasteless. i started skateboarding again it helps but its just not as fun when i was youner. Yea sure maybe its because ive grown up. But when nothing is fun and everythign seems so tasteless whats the point of growing up. I dont want to go to college get out and work the rest of my life.