You know that empty feeling inside
My life couldn't be better right now.. There is just one thing I wish I still had and I guess it makes me crazy.. I know its been like a month now.. I'm still in love.. and I can't change that at the moment. I have this thing.. Where if it is completly over with, I need to know, I need to be told that nothing is anything anymore. Even if its just a frienship that we don't even have. I just need to feel that we both know what is going on, whats allowed and not allowed.
I have been hanging out with people.. and I sort of like someone.. but that doesn't even matter,, I haven't been myself.. Even if someone did like me.. it wouldn't be ME who they like. I have been a COMPLETELY different person... Besides all that my high freaking anxiety and panic attacks for no reason whatsoever.
I asked about going through councling again.. which might help myself from being so unsure.
No one should expect me to be over the person I first loved in a day... It's going to take time.. and for me.. A WHOLE LOT of understanding.. I just feel like a big piece of shit..
Why can't my life be easy?
I have been hanging out with people.. and I sort of like someone.. but that doesn't even matter,, I haven't been myself.. Even if someone did like me.. it wouldn't be ME who they like. I have been a COMPLETELY different person... Besides all that my high freaking anxiety and panic attacks for no reason whatsoever.
I asked about going through councling again.. which might help myself from being so unsure.
No one should expect me to be over the person I first loved in a day... It's going to take time.. and for me.. A WHOLE LOT of understanding.. I just feel like a big piece of shit..
Why can't my life be easy?