bleh
well here's another update. It's not going to be as long as the last one ( i think) lol. Well things have been okay. Yesterday I went on the band trip (only for the day tho) and it was alot of fun. I got a bib from McDonalds and it's the coolest thing ever :P ha ha. I only fell asleep once. :p I had alot of fun. And now there's nothing to do at school cuz all my friends are gone :( oh well. Tommrow I'm not going to school. I'm going to MTS with my mommy.. i don't know why.. but it's better then having to deal with the losers in my math class. And i'll get to see some of my friends who i havn't been able to see for a long time!
Hmm.. oh yeah. I made an appointment with the social worker today. I don't know when i'll go see her.. but atleast I made an appointment. I really hope that something can come outta this. I really want to stop being depressed all the time. It's such a waste of time and energy! I hate it! I hope i can get to see her some time next week.
hmm what else? oi! Things with kassie havn't really worsened or got better. but I've already been asked by um... 3.. or 4 people (i don't remember) if we are still going out. and all i don't really know how to answer.. like i know we are.. but at the same time i don't even feel like we are. I don't know waht to do anymore. She knows I want things to get fixed.. but it's things that she's holding on to that is what (i think) isn't letting things go back to normal. She almost seems afraid to talk to me about these things... cuz she never really does.. or if she does.. it's very um.. hard to comprehend. I just want her to come out with the truth about everything? If she's lost intest or feelings for me that's perfectly alright (i hope she hasn't), or even if she's become intrested in somone else. I just wanna know what's going on. Like in all honesty.. how can she expect me to keep an intrest in her.. when she brealy shows any in me? this just feels like another crush that's not gonna go anywhere... I want it to last.. but there's the whole lack of communication going on... She's just gotta believe me when i tell her that i'm not gonna get mad at her if she tells me things she thinks i won't like. UGH this is pethetic.. i feel like i'm holding on to something that's not there.
please.... :(
Hmm.. oh yeah. I made an appointment with the social worker today. I don't know when i'll go see her.. but atleast I made an appointment. I really hope that something can come outta this. I really want to stop being depressed all the time. It's such a waste of time and energy! I hate it! I hope i can get to see her some time next week.
hmm what else? oi! Things with kassie havn't really worsened or got better. but I've already been asked by um... 3.. or 4 people (i don't remember) if we are still going out. and all i don't really know how to answer.. like i know we are.. but at the same time i don't even feel like we are. I don't know waht to do anymore. She knows I want things to get fixed.. but it's things that she's holding on to that is what (i think) isn't letting things go back to normal. She almost seems afraid to talk to me about these things... cuz she never really does.. or if she does.. it's very um.. hard to comprehend. I just want her to come out with the truth about everything? If she's lost intest or feelings for me that's perfectly alright (i hope she hasn't), or even if she's become intrested in somone else. I just wanna know what's going on. Like in all honesty.. how can she expect me to keep an intrest in her.. when she brealy shows any in me? this just feels like another crush that's not gonna go anywhere... I want it to last.. but there's the whole lack of communication going on... She's just gotta believe me when i tell her that i'm not gonna get mad at her if she tells me things she thinks i won't like. UGH this is pethetic.. i feel like i'm holding on to something that's not there.
please.... :(