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Some things just drain me so much. When they do, it's like my whole self goes into auto-pilot, conserving energy only for the vital things - smiling and joking with parents, keeping up with chores - and then nothing else. It's like my whole personality gets consumed by this emptiness of everything. I don't know what it takes to recover - it varies everytime. So hopefully sleep and work will help (though I'm not getting much sleep tonight - it's past midnight and I have to get up at 5:30 to get to work on time!)
It's just that the thing draining me right now...I don't know what to do about it. I don't know how to make it better. And that's really, really, fucking lame. I would be more pissed off, except...you got it! No energy for it. No time, even.
Writing about stuff used to help. So, throwing out a rope and hoping this will still help.
Wish me luck for work tomorrow!
It's just that the thing draining me right now...I don't know what to do about it. I don't know how to make it better. And that's really, really, fucking lame. I would be more pissed off, except...you got it! No energy for it. No time, even.
Writing about stuff used to help. So, throwing out a rope and hoping this will still help.
Wish me luck for work tomorrow!