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Well, what can I say? I deleted all my old entries, mostly in the hopes of sounding less like well... a fourteen-year old.
But really, in all this time that has passed since I last updated, so much has happened in my life. I've been through crushes, actual romances, away from home, at home, two proms, weddings, funerals. In short, four years of experiences that make me look back at the entries I made and realize that even though I thought otherwise, I didn't know squat about the world. In some ways, I think I was even less mature than the people I criticized. I saw everything in black and white, and no understanding about what anyone other than myself was thinking.
I almost wish I had kept writing in this... if nothing other than to keep me up all night deleting entries one by one, I could have seen the change from fourteen to eighteen year old in more graduated terms.
But anyway, here I am. I'm hoping that with this journal, I can create another way of staying in touch with the people back home, and maybe even with people in my new life. Who knows, it's all in the future.
But really, in all this time that has passed since I last updated, so much has happened in my life. I've been through crushes, actual romances, away from home, at home, two proms, weddings, funerals. In short, four years of experiences that make me look back at the entries I made and realize that even though I thought otherwise, I didn't know squat about the world. In some ways, I think I was even less mature than the people I criticized. I saw everything in black and white, and no understanding about what anyone other than myself was thinking.
I almost wish I had kept writing in this... if nothing other than to keep me up all night deleting entries one by one, I could have seen the change from fourteen to eighteen year old in more graduated terms.
But anyway, here I am. I'm hoping that with this journal, I can create another way of staying in touch with the people back home, and maybe even with people in my new life. Who knows, it's all in the future.