life as of now
so...been a long time since i've posted anything.
MY FINANCIAL LIFE:
love my work-it's photography could i ask for anything better?but i could-photography where i make MONEY!!!!i love it and i'm not going to quit but i'm going to have to get another job to make it right now.i owe the bank $147, i owe alltel $511,which will be less after we get it fixed.and that's just my problems right now. i haven't even thought about christmas yet or the fact that i'm suppose to be saving for a trip to Africa right now!
FAMILY LIFE:
Sister and brother-in-law are still living here which to a point doesn't bother me anymore.there's just the issue of how much it screws up my dad and mine's life!dad has no money right now yet they are still mooching off of us and taking what he does have. i love my nephew being here but i can't take my sister all the time.something is going to have to change or i can't be here anymore!!!
SCHOOL LIFE:
school is going ok-i can't believe i'm almost done with my first semester!it doesn't seem life it's been long enough for that!psychology is great, english is incredibly easy,and i'm doing fine in public speaking but i've had to drop math.me- math!it makes no sense.i'm good in math but i had to drop it cuz i was failing!it sucks.i know i said i want to go to jeffstate for another year after this one then transfer to montevallo but i am ready to go now.i just want to finish out this year then go!i know im not gonna have the money is the main thing tho!
MY LOVE LIFE:
so....WESLEY!wut can i say.we met, i like him, i'm pretty sure he likes me.at first he was very much into me in all senses of the word!he was even talking about me moving in and things like that.then things got weird all the sudden.now we are "just friends".i don't understand that term.if you are dating you are not "just friends" and he says we are dating. for once i want more!!!i usually am fine with just letting it be what it is,not pushing things so fast, not making a commitment(definitely none of that)but for some reason now i'm ready.i'm tired of going from guy to guy and not ever being loved.not ever loving them.i want a relationship.i want someone who could maybe think about being with me forever.this doesn't sound like me at all (i do like to "play")but it is me at least right now.i want to tell him this, i want him to feel the same way but he wants to do things slow and i don't want to rush things either but i really feel like im so much more into him then he is me.i guess my point is i don't want to waste my time but i don't want to skip out on something that could be great if i waited!
IN GENERAL:
ok so financially i want to scream,home issues are making me very uneasy and my love life is well lets say- not going the way i want!i'm frustrated right now.i mean am i wrong to let these things bother me?i can't help it nothing seems to work out in my favor. it seems life no matter what the situation there has to be some kind of road block that has a sign that says HAPPINESS THIS WAY!ALL OTHERS MAY PASS BUT NOT MARISA FRANKS!
it sucks and i don't know how much longer i can handle things-something has to change!
thanks for listening...
~bubblezo0o0o0o0o0
MY FINANCIAL LIFE:
love my work-it's photography could i ask for anything better?but i could-photography where i make MONEY!!!!i love it and i'm not going to quit but i'm going to have to get another job to make it right now.i owe the bank $147, i owe alltel $511,which will be less after we get it fixed.and that's just my problems right now. i haven't even thought about christmas yet or the fact that i'm suppose to be saving for a trip to Africa right now!
FAMILY LIFE:
Sister and brother-in-law are still living here which to a point doesn't bother me anymore.there's just the issue of how much it screws up my dad and mine's life!dad has no money right now yet they are still mooching off of us and taking what he does have. i love my nephew being here but i can't take my sister all the time.something is going to have to change or i can't be here anymore!!!
SCHOOL LIFE:
school is going ok-i can't believe i'm almost done with my first semester!it doesn't seem life it's been long enough for that!psychology is great, english is incredibly easy,and i'm doing fine in public speaking but i've had to drop math.me- math!it makes no sense.i'm good in math but i had to drop it cuz i was failing!it sucks.i know i said i want to go to jeffstate for another year after this one then transfer to montevallo but i am ready to go now.i just want to finish out this year then go!i know im not gonna have the money is the main thing tho!
MY LOVE LIFE:
so....WESLEY!wut can i say.we met, i like him, i'm pretty sure he likes me.at first he was very much into me in all senses of the word!he was even talking about me moving in and things like that.then things got weird all the sudden.now we are "just friends".i don't understand that term.if you are dating you are not "just friends" and he says we are dating. for once i want more!!!i usually am fine with just letting it be what it is,not pushing things so fast, not making a commitment(definitely none of that)but for some reason now i'm ready.i'm tired of going from guy to guy and not ever being loved.not ever loving them.i want a relationship.i want someone who could maybe think about being with me forever.this doesn't sound like me at all (i do like to "play")but it is me at least right now.i want to tell him this, i want him to feel the same way but he wants to do things slow and i don't want to rush things either but i really feel like im so much more into him then he is me.i guess my point is i don't want to waste my time but i don't want to skip out on something that could be great if i waited!
IN GENERAL:
ok so financially i want to scream,home issues are making me very uneasy and my love life is well lets say- not going the way i want!i'm frustrated right now.i mean am i wrong to let these things bother me?i can't help it nothing seems to work out in my favor. it seems life no matter what the situation there has to be some kind of road block that has a sign that says HAPPINESS THIS WAY!ALL OTHERS MAY PASS BUT NOT MARISA FRANKS!
it sucks and i don't know how much longer i can handle things-something has to change!
thanks for listening...
~bubblezo0o0o0o0o0