stress.

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for my age, i have a lot of stress and worry on my shoulders.
i wish someone could just tell me how i should live my life.
the right way, and the way that sounds pleasing.
teenagers are supposed to have adventures, do stupid things, fall in love.. those type things.
the first human being to invent all of these things on earth.
tell me how i should live my life..
or have you died just like the rest of us will and have?
my life is hard, did you map this out for me?
did you know that i could get through this..?
But your a hypocrite, I'm tired of the drama girl,
I dont need this shit
even though you take me higher than the moon,
tonight it's not about you
i am a hypocrite.
none of this is my fault, before you start your shit.
i did nothing wrong.
he did it to me.
and i was free.
was, is past tense.
i've sneezed a lot today.
my week is going by fast but getting harder.
i thought we were gonna do this together?
thanks for leaving me behind.. but i'm glad your thinking for yourself.
i will be alone for the weekend.
resisting as much as i can.
its hard when he's not letting go.
and when your gone, you can't help me.
i need you.
running didn't help me get anything of my shoulders.
nor did it calm me down.
i need another way of relieving it.
music just makes me even more depressed.
writing helps to a certain point.
i wish i was a happy person all the time.
is there even someone like that in the world?
i want to meet them. they are really smart to know
lifes to short to sit around being sad.
but i really can't help it. i will look back on this and say.
you idiot you wasted so much time. and could have been doing
big and better things.
regrets.