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[pookahchu]

So yeah, been working at the gym for like a month now. Also working temporary assignments whenever they are available, also still looking for programming jobs, and taking care of medical stuff, car stuff, etc. Oh, yeah, and I still have web orders to fill and deliver. I have roughly three appointments per day these days and I spend a lot of time

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[anonymous]

Thank you for your comment! It gave me a lot to think about.

One thing I must clarify: I never said my brain is the only thing going for me. I said it is both my greatest asset- AND my worst enemy.

I don't mean "think and make things happen" What I'm talking about is the difference between passively calling recruiters and posting my resume, or getting into a business suit and walking down to places I want to work with my resume and talking to HR managers.

All that aside, my biggest decision is between taking a serious programming job for the money, or look for artsy work that I like and make far less money. I've been trying to walk both roads for far too long, and found I can't be great at both without committing to one or the other. I have a focus problem. Every month it's something different. When I try to do too many things I go nowhere fast, so I must pick something and stick with it.

I can't just submit my resume to anything under the broad spectrum of non-profit to finance and see what happens. I've decided that that is a passive and reactionary way of living. Now is the time that I've got to get my mind set, decide what it is I really want, and go for it.

-It might be singing in nursing homes between gigs... or it might be working at the gym and studying for my ACE tests, or else its a world of dimwitted computers and sell-by stamped expiring programming technologies for me.

[igferatu]

Ah, well there's nothing wrong with increasing focus and concentration in that situation. I'd just say don't be too hard on yourself, just your awareness of the issue is a sign that you'll keep working on it.

I find that I have to sort of go through the motions of doing what I think a person is supposed to do and then eventually, after I've pretty much given up, something else pops up.