FRIENDS ONLY
I'm sorry to say that due to recent events and the increasing number of pissy little anonymous comments I've been getting lately, I'm going to have to make this journal Friends Only for the most part.
I really hate to do this, I always always told myself I'd never go Friends Only, there's something about the idea which doesn't really fit with the way I am, but I'm learning that life doesn't always work out to suit yourself.
Things that have been happening have made me increasingly paranoid and lately I've really felt like I can't write what I want on here, my own fucking journal, and I hate that.
I don't think this paranoia will go away entirely even with going Friends Only but I don't know what else to do.
I hate the idea of not being able to say what I want on my own personal space, I don't write this journal to impress people or anything like that, I write about what I've been doing and what I'm thinking mostly to keep a record of it because I have a shit memory and don't want to forget the things that make me myself but now I feel like I can't even do that anymore which is really fucking horrible.
I've been holding back on writing about things I've really, really wanted to write about because I feel like I can't talk about the entire picture and to edit and cut things out for paranoia's sake just seems pointless to me, it defeats the whole purpose of this journal.
I don't mind the idea of people being able to read about me and my little life, in fact, I quite like it, it's like taking a little peek into someone else's story.
But if it's going to start affecting me and the people I care most about in a negative way then I can't carry on.
I might do a bit of a friends cut as well, I don't know, I just feel like I need to reign in a bit of control over the situation when I never used to care.
This is really fucking upsetting me, my hands are actually shaking as I type.
I'm sorry.
x x x
I really hate to do this, I always always told myself I'd never go Friends Only, there's something about the idea which doesn't really fit with the way I am, but I'm learning that life doesn't always work out to suit yourself.
Things that have been happening have made me increasingly paranoid and lately I've really felt like I can't write what I want on here, my own fucking journal, and I hate that.
I don't think this paranoia will go away entirely even with going Friends Only but I don't know what else to do.
I hate the idea of not being able to say what I want on my own personal space, I don't write this journal to impress people or anything like that, I write about what I've been doing and what I'm thinking mostly to keep a record of it because I have a shit memory and don't want to forget the things that make me myself but now I feel like I can't even do that anymore which is really fucking horrible.
I've been holding back on writing about things I've really, really wanted to write about because I feel like I can't talk about the entire picture and to edit and cut things out for paranoia's sake just seems pointless to me, it defeats the whole purpose of this journal.
I don't mind the idea of people being able to read about me and my little life, in fact, I quite like it, it's like taking a little peek into someone else's story.
But if it's going to start affecting me and the people I care most about in a negative way then I can't carry on.
I might do a bit of a friends cut as well, I don't know, I just feel like I need to reign in a bit of control over the situation when I never used to care.
This is really fucking upsetting me, my hands are actually shaking as I type.
I'm sorry.
x x x