I've Come Too Far
I said that I was going to numb my heart and become the cold hearted person I once was. Well I refused to go back. I have come too far to let some chick who I've only known a few months mess that up. I refuse to give her that much power over me. All my friends were calling me crazy all along but I couldn't see it because I was blind and totally not myself. I was crazy. It's like one of my friends said she had some kind of spell on me. I was doing things I never do. But the spell is wearing off now and I am beginning to see what kind of person she really is. My friends are telling me she is not worth all this stress I have been going through. Well it's true. For her to drop me for no reason at all, she is definitely not worth my time or energy. I deserve friends that respect me and that do not intentionally try to hurt me and I won't settle for less ever again and most of all not fall for someone like that. I was doing perfectly fine before she came into my life. I wasn't stressed. It's weird that my friends had been telling me all along that being with her was stressing me out. Even my therapist said that I have nightmares when I am stressed. And boy did I have them all the time when she and I were together. Like I said it is weird that everyone was telling me this but I am just now realizing it. It's good that she is refusing to talk to me because I would have never freed myself. I would still be blind, under her spell, pining over her. But now I am moving on and feel pretty good about myself because I know that I didn't do anything wrong and my intentions were good. I also feel pretty good because I am going to continue to be the best person I can be and continue to be caring and loving. I'm not going to let one rotten apple spoil everything that I worked so hard to accomplish.