For Rory Asher

[pooh8o8smom]

OK Babe, whats going on? You should know That I love you and your sister more than any thing or anyone in this world. I know your dads a good man, and a good dad. But honey we aren't fighting about his surgery being inconvenient to me we are fighting because every time I say something to him he bites my head off or talks to me like I'm 4 years old

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[roryasher]

my problem mother is you arent there for me.like when kit and dan were runnin wild at the house eating my food no matter what i told them they did exactly what they wanted so i turned to you and what do i get "its not my problem i dont live here" how can somone no matter who it is taking advantage of or fucking with your son not be your problem. the more you side with the 2 of them the bigger the void gets between you and i and the rest of the people here....but my real problem is though i love you very much i have grown up hell bet not to be like you.. the other day jen said she was gunna do somethin i didnt agree with and i blow up at her told her if she did id never talk to her agin to not bother talking to me that ill be dead to her.and i realized i do that alot i say terrible things when im mad like when i blew up at dad those few times i was cruel i said hortible things he didnt deserve at all.and thats what you do when your mad when you dont get your way whe your frustrated at people. and i always used to think how can she do that how could she talk to someone she loves like that how can she be so mean and never apologize never feel guilty.the big defference between us is when i blow up like you do when its all said and done i can hardly live with myself for the things ive said or done and i do apologize well sometimes i mean how do you apologize for treating someone like that. and sometimes the guilt dosnt go away. but you should take dan or kits side you should be on my side and when i need you even if it means laying down the law to dan or kit kit especialy you shouldnt have even had to think about it and you definitly shouldnt have acted like it wasnt your problem any time i need you it should be your problem even if its unpleasent

[pooh8o8smom]

Ok I see there are major issuses here, As for it not being my problem son your 20 years old, You are old enough to solve some of this on your own. Just like you did when you had had enough and kicked kit out of the house. And as far as not being there and being such a horrible person, if thats how you feel about me, I guess thats your right, all I have ever done is my best to take care of my family, even when it meant moving away from the people I love the most. Dont worry I make sure you don't have to deal with your horrible Mother anymore than absolutly nessasary once your dad goes back to florida. As for the issuses with your dad, thats really none of your business, this is my marriage not yours and your Father shouldn't have put you in it.

[roryasher]

he didnt put me in it mom thats not the issue just misty knows stuff so phil finds out and then i fond out and your not horrible its just i dont like sharing some of your darker traits i love you and want you around its just why did i have to get your temper too i mean i got alot of good things from you but the wman in this family all have evil tempers you wanted to know what was wrong with me this is why i dont talk to you about my problems you just cant understand you go on the defencisive and now because i was open with you about what was goin on with me i gotta deal with you bein pissed at me for it on top of everything else i mean you tell me i can turn to you but freak out on me when i do ::shakes head:: how about we just forget i said anything it oviously wasnt inportant enough to you to listen and even attempt to understand what i was sayin i have a horrible temper like you i go way overboard when i loss it just like you i was just letting you know that and that i hate it theres nothin you can do about it but you wanted to know whats goin on so i fuckin told you... look i really am sorry i said anything i wont agin

tempers

[pooh8o8smom]

Well son I'm not mad at you for starters, I need you to tell me whats going on because you rarely ever open up about whats going on in your life, you get that from me also. AS for your temper, honey yes the women in this family do have terrible tempers but so do the men it just takes more for them to show it, so basicly you got it from both sides, plus the dick you rode in on had a temper too. As for your dad I never told him to cancel his surgury, in fact I told him NO when he asked me if he should, but you know how your dad can be when he gets a bug up his butt, He's just gonna get pissed off and bitch about it to everyone. but then again thats dad and we just have to love him anyway. But the most important thing is you can talk to me, but i can't do anything about your temper, it's just in your genes. Love ya Baby, Mom

Re: tempers

[roryasher]

soooo....where do i get my hairiness from?

Re: tempers

[pooh8o8smom]

The dick you rode in on, I had nothing to do with that babe. Love you, Mom

[roryasher]

all i wanted was to give you some insight into my personal life i wasnt expecting advice i didnt want help i was just venting. so mother lemme try agin i take pride in being as good as i can to people so is it so hard to believe that it would trouble me when i loss my temper and am the extreme opisite and how about you try and denie i dont get my temper from you its just frustrating the woman in this blood line are saposed to have the psycho gene but you just had to pass it on to me and you know mom your respoce is exactly what im talkin about thats exactly what i do but for the record it was intirly uncalled for you read what i wrote but i dont think you let any of it sink in you and dad will be fine in almost 20 years of marrage 20 years with one parent about 19 with the other i think i know you 2 well enough not to worry to much cuz you guys get in like one big fight a year just like you and misty i mean im well aware im your favorite i always looked at it like you have more confidence in me to handle my life and my problems then you do in just about anyone else whcih for the most part is true but i mean sometimes i might wanna come to you with a problems that dosnt involve jail time hahaha i mean i guess the bright side of inheriting your temper is ive always inherited your ability to bend people to your will but its i still feel bad when i know ive gone to far when ive lost my temper you know

[roryasher]

but the biggest issue aside from being sick of being single is i donthave a room and we need to get the babys room done i mean what the hell are we gunna do with him if he comes eirly and i need you to call aunt deann to remind her about my wallet and id's and mistys sooooooooooooooo pissy she wines she crys she yells she bitches and she eats alll the time. and my hands get ice cold alot whats that about? the tips of my fingures go numb sometimes and its snnoying mainly my hands goin cold cuz i cant warm them. oh call jen i think she had a question about the shower

[roryasher]

but honestly it is profoundly wrong that you never ever apologize and you do need to be more forgiving all i ask is that you try i mean i cant ask for more then that