I hate Carrots...
Especially when they are dangled in front of my nose...
I have in the last few months, been BLAH at work. Why? I knew something was up with Management. We had a new Store Director in Training (Amy), they were desparately getting a Specialist (it took a year) and things in the store were strange. I was not getting that promotion. I could see it. Plus, today I was informed I am NOT going to be going to the Color Encore Artistry classes.
Now we have Amy as the Store Director, Angela a new store director in training (I love her), and a NEW specialist Jennifer (I am not impressed). I was not given a promotion. I am apparently not promotable (saw this in an email before CFTC and how would your morale feel if you saw that). I have lost alot of will at work. I was doing the job of 2 people and I felt, hell, if I am not getting promoted, why do I have to do all this work???
I have busted my ass at that store. I have some of THE BEST BUSINESS in the company (I have the #1 Stila Business , #1 Nars Business, #3 Dior Business, #4 Benefit Business, and so on...). I am great at Event Planning (I have been told by many people that I am the best in the Company). I create great morale with my team... But it is not good enough. Why? Because of some problems I have.
I am having problems with focus. I have problems controlling my emotions. Its a long story. It sucks. I think I need a stronger mood stabilizer. I go next Thursday to see Dr. MacNamera.
But i can live without being the specialist... But the Color Encore thing. I have been working and working to get something and go somewhere and now boom. Nothing. I am upset. I feel cheated. I am hurt.
We talked about career paths, obviously, I want to be a Makeup Artist. I wanted to go to Encore because it is going to be like the MAC Pro team. Its almost a slap in the face that I am not going. They say that they are not sure how comitted I am with Sephora since I have shown interest in working with Vendors (ie Nars). I do not know what the future holds. I love my job, I love Sephora. It is the little things like this that make me not like my job. But when we talked today about careers, the things that I can do like coordinate events (which there is a new corporate position that a guy does for all the stores) for the region (which there should be one regionally that works in a store as a home base). But they have not created that position. Nor do I think they will in the future. So what am I to do? I do not want to be the Color Lead the rest of my life.
I was hurt today. I cried and I got upset. I am angry and every emotion you can think of. I held my composure. I feel broken. But I went on. I am not sure where to go next. I have nothing to really look forward to and I am afraid to try to get my hopes up for something else, because look what happened. I am so confused.
*crawls into a ball and weeps*
I have in the last few months, been BLAH at work. Why? I knew something was up with Management. We had a new Store Director in Training (Amy), they were desparately getting a Specialist (it took a year) and things in the store were strange. I was not getting that promotion. I could see it. Plus, today I was informed I am NOT going to be going to the Color Encore Artistry classes.
Now we have Amy as the Store Director, Angela a new store director in training (I love her), and a NEW specialist Jennifer (I am not impressed). I was not given a promotion. I am apparently not promotable (saw this in an email before CFTC and how would your morale feel if you saw that). I have lost alot of will at work. I was doing the job of 2 people and I felt, hell, if I am not getting promoted, why do I have to do all this work???
I have busted my ass at that store. I have some of THE BEST BUSINESS in the company (I have the #1 Stila Business , #1 Nars Business, #3 Dior Business, #4 Benefit Business, and so on...). I am great at Event Planning (I have been told by many people that I am the best in the Company). I create great morale with my team... But it is not good enough. Why? Because of some problems I have.
I am having problems with focus. I have problems controlling my emotions. Its a long story. It sucks. I think I need a stronger mood stabilizer. I go next Thursday to see Dr. MacNamera.
But i can live without being the specialist... But the Color Encore thing. I have been working and working to get something and go somewhere and now boom. Nothing. I am upset. I feel cheated. I am hurt.
We talked about career paths, obviously, I want to be a Makeup Artist. I wanted to go to Encore because it is going to be like the MAC Pro team. Its almost a slap in the face that I am not going. They say that they are not sure how comitted I am with Sephora since I have shown interest in working with Vendors (ie Nars). I do not know what the future holds. I love my job, I love Sephora. It is the little things like this that make me not like my job. But when we talked today about careers, the things that I can do like coordinate events (which there is a new corporate position that a guy does for all the stores) for the region (which there should be one regionally that works in a store as a home base). But they have not created that position. Nor do I think they will in the future. So what am I to do? I do not want to be the Color Lead the rest of my life.
I was hurt today. I cried and I got upset. I am angry and every emotion you can think of. I held my composure. I feel broken. But I went on. I am not sure where to go next. I have nothing to really look forward to and I am afraid to try to get my hopes up for something else, because look what happened. I am so confused.
*crawls into a ball and weeps*