will i ever NOT be DISAPPOINTED ?
the ONLY word to describe me and my life... DISAPPOINTMENT.
the harder i try the more disappointed i become.
i live, eat and sleep disappointment.
i know that I am the only one who can change that too, but I am trying hard to do it and failing.
just when i see the light at the end of the tunnel, the light goes to darkness once again.
maybe it is past the time to move on.. but where to move to?
going home is the LAST place I wanna go... Further south is repulsive.
i aint about to go west... and the North / Northeast is TOO COLD! and the Midwest? dont make me laugh.
I feel stranded. Caught in a web. All alone. WORTHLESS.
I dont mean to feel sorry for meself, but that is the mood I am in today. I am having my own pity party. Drinks anyone?
I have coffee, iced tea and water. Sorry, but I already finished the diet soda. I can make some soup! Want some soup? I have plenty of crackers too.
Gawd, my life is SHIT!
I am grateful to have a job but where is it headed? nowhere fast. Just 40 hours a week. no benefits either... life of the eternal Temporary worker. Besides, who wants to hire me?? I am forty years old, no degree and a FILTHY past that will haunt me FOREVER!
I am treated like a 3rd class citizen. I have to pay taxes to a Fascist Government that cares LESS about me and everyone.
I have to pay for Breeder's kids to go to school...
I have no rights left. none.
I said I was going to give it till the end of my lease and if something SPECIAL didnt happen for me I am outta here, but I may move that date up! up by several months. but like I said, where am I gonna go? I aint got no car... no money either. I am too busy paying out and waiting for my "roommate" to pay back his share.
I think another thing I am going to do, is follow a friend of mine and DELETE all of my internet ads. They dont do me a bit of good.
EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE who responds to them is no less than 1000 miles from me. NY, GA, FL, TX, Canada, CA, WA... England, France, Germany, SPAIN, Portugual...and the list grows ...
Having to share a car with a roommate makes it IMPOSSIBLE to date or even attempt to date. Therefore, I might as well GIVE UP!
I can spend my nights and weekends dowloading and burning cd's... burning dvd's and watching TV and Dvd's.
what more can a gay man ask for? right?!
well, now that i have that off my chest, i dont feel any better.
i am going to bed.. there's nthng to do ...
good night.
the harder i try the more disappointed i become.
i live, eat and sleep disappointment.
i know that I am the only one who can change that too, but I am trying hard to do it and failing.
just when i see the light at the end of the tunnel, the light goes to darkness once again.
maybe it is past the time to move on.. but where to move to?
going home is the LAST place I wanna go... Further south is repulsive.
i aint about to go west... and the North / Northeast is TOO COLD! and the Midwest? dont make me laugh.
I feel stranded. Caught in a web. All alone. WORTHLESS.
I dont mean to feel sorry for meself, but that is the mood I am in today. I am having my own pity party. Drinks anyone?
I have coffee, iced tea and water. Sorry, but I already finished the diet soda. I can make some soup! Want some soup? I have plenty of crackers too.
Gawd, my life is SHIT!
I am grateful to have a job but where is it headed? nowhere fast. Just 40 hours a week. no benefits either... life of the eternal Temporary worker. Besides, who wants to hire me?? I am forty years old, no degree and a FILTHY past that will haunt me FOREVER!
I am treated like a 3rd class citizen. I have to pay taxes to a Fascist Government that cares LESS about me and everyone.
I have to pay for Breeder's kids to go to school...
I have no rights left. none.
I said I was going to give it till the end of my lease and if something SPECIAL didnt happen for me I am outta here, but I may move that date up! up by several months. but like I said, where am I gonna go? I aint got no car... no money either. I am too busy paying out and waiting for my "roommate" to pay back his share.
I think another thing I am going to do, is follow a friend of mine and DELETE all of my internet ads. They dont do me a bit of good.
EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE who responds to them is no less than 1000 miles from me. NY, GA, FL, TX, Canada, CA, WA... England, France, Germany, SPAIN, Portugual...and the list grows ...
Having to share a car with a roommate makes it IMPOSSIBLE to date or even attempt to date. Therefore, I might as well GIVE UP!
I can spend my nights and weekends dowloading and burning cd's... burning dvd's and watching TV and Dvd's.
what more can a gay man ask for? right?!
well, now that i have that off my chest, i dont feel any better.
i am going to bed.. there's nthng to do ...
good night.