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JM bought me a cool lap top from his job. They were selling 'em cheap. It's sort of exciting to have this powerful tool that sits on my lap and connects to the internet.
I'm finding the daily grind a little less than satisfying. Friends, social activities, taking classes for my job, JM, not seeming to do it for me this past week or two. I've restarted the gym project, but been there, done that as far as the obsessions go. It's just not as all encompassing anymore, maybe because I'm too lazy to put myself into it as wholeheartedly as I need to to get results. I guess it's time to spend some energy trying to get back into grad school. No more excuses for putting it off, especially now that I have this cool new tool. Maybe I need a hobby?
I do have moments where I wonder, is this what all my brain power is being used on? Being an administrator? Shouldn't I be doing something more useful for the world? Rather than fascilitating the movement of paper and money? And yet, having my little list of tasks involving arcane computer prgrams, fillig out forms to get people paid, and creating spreadsheets is oddly satisfying. I don't know how long this will last, sometimes I think not very, but then I cross something off the list or put something new on it and I'm off. I think it helps that I'm working for a Feminist Studies program, the people are cool, it's small enough that I get to do it all.
I'm finding the daily grind a little less than satisfying. Friends, social activities, taking classes for my job, JM, not seeming to do it for me this past week or two. I've restarted the gym project, but been there, done that as far as the obsessions go. It's just not as all encompassing anymore, maybe because I'm too lazy to put myself into it as wholeheartedly as I need to to get results. I guess it's time to spend some energy trying to get back into grad school. No more excuses for putting it off, especially now that I have this cool new tool. Maybe I need a hobby?
I do have moments where I wonder, is this what all my brain power is being used on? Being an administrator? Shouldn't I be doing something more useful for the world? Rather than fascilitating the movement of paper and money? And yet, having my little list of tasks involving arcane computer prgrams, fillig out forms to get people paid, and creating spreadsheets is oddly satisfying. I don't know how long this will last, sometimes I think not very, but then I cross something off the list or put something new on it and I'm off. I think it helps that I'm working for a Feminist Studies program, the people are cool, it's small enough that I get to do it all.