crushes
i do realize that i sound like a pre-teen with a crush, but i really do like HIM. over the past couple days, we've been talking even more. and it's not jsut me initiating it, he does too. i don't know. i know he's a flirt, and that he's doing this just for fun, but i can't stop thinking about him. i feel like just telling him that i like him. but i think it's too early. like i need to KNOW that i REALLY REALLY REALLY like him before i do that. it could be just a stupid crush, but it feels real. still, i'm gonna give myself time before i do something i'll regret later. why break a 5 year no dating streak now, right? it'll just complicate my already complicated life. add more stress. give me somethign else to think about.. something else to distract me. there's just so many reasons not to do anything, but i still really wanna tell him. BUT NO! i will wait a little while before telling him. maybe christmas...if i still have feelings for him by christmas, i'll tell him. sounds good right?
yup, i sound like a pathetic prepubescent with a crush. if one of my friends were saying this to me, i'd be rollign eyes dramatically right now.