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yeah so this is the effing third time today that ive updated.. but i guess i have nothing better to do with my life so its okay what ever i dont care..
so latley i really havent been being myself.. i mean i went to cheryls house yesterday and what did i do? i sat around and didnt talk. then finally started being okay and then ended up crying.. i hate when ppl see my cry i absolutley hate it more then ne thing.. thats why i cry when im home bymyself.. i hate it so much.. and ive been so depressed with everything.. and i just am NOT myself.. theres just so much that i regret and so much that i wish i could take back.. and so much that i wish never happend.. i wish it was as easy to fall out of love as it is to fall in.. idk.. its hard to explain the way that ive been feeling i guess.. i miss summertime.. there was nothing but good during summer.. i loved last summer.. i met amazing ppl and have amazing times with good ppl.. and now.. now its just gay im hurt and i dont kno how long im gunna be feeling the way that i do.. and i absolutley hate it more then ne thing in the world.. i wish more then ne thing that it would just go away and i could make everything the way that it uesd to be.. everything i thought was perfect.. i had a perfect life.. but now im realizing that some things are just way too good to be true.. and i knew that the whole time but i never let myself believe it i didnt want to believe it.. but i guess things happen for a reason so this whole thing is for a reason.. i guess im realizing a whole lot about myself and other ppl and in a way im glad this happened.. its gunna teach me a whole lot.. and what to watch out for and what to believe and what not to believe next time around.. when im not so terrified that im gunne get my heart ripped outta my chest and stomped on. but i guess shit happens.. and im guess im not "over it" cuz i wouldnt still be constantly thinking about it and going crazy and crying all the time if i was.. and i would definatley not be bringing it up all the time.. idk what to say i dont kno theres just so much going on right now thats confusing the hell outta me.. theres so many feelings and thoughts all coming back to me.. but there just not the same.. idk its hard.. real hard.. but it could be worse.. i could be going through alot worse and i kno that there is ppl out that who are or who have.. and they read this and are like WTF.. selfish bitch. i guess thats what i am.. but idk
something coorperate and fall out boy is effing amazing.. they make me think and i love it.
i wanna go to warped tour sooo effing bad.
look at all the bands.. itll be AMAZING
www.warpedtour.com
woah.
im out peace gays
so latley i really havent been being myself.. i mean i went to cheryls house yesterday and what did i do? i sat around and didnt talk. then finally started being okay and then ended up crying.. i hate when ppl see my cry i absolutley hate it more then ne thing.. thats why i cry when im home bymyself.. i hate it so much.. and ive been so depressed with everything.. and i just am NOT myself.. theres just so much that i regret and so much that i wish i could take back.. and so much that i wish never happend.. i wish it was as easy to fall out of love as it is to fall in.. idk.. its hard to explain the way that ive been feeling i guess.. i miss summertime.. there was nothing but good during summer.. i loved last summer.. i met amazing ppl and have amazing times with good ppl.. and now.. now its just gay im hurt and i dont kno how long im gunna be feeling the way that i do.. and i absolutley hate it more then ne thing in the world.. i wish more then ne thing that it would just go away and i could make everything the way that it uesd to be.. everything i thought was perfect.. i had a perfect life.. but now im realizing that some things are just way too good to be true.. and i knew that the whole time but i never let myself believe it i didnt want to believe it.. but i guess things happen for a reason so this whole thing is for a reason.. i guess im realizing a whole lot about myself and other ppl and in a way im glad this happened.. its gunna teach me a whole lot.. and what to watch out for and what to believe and what not to believe next time around.. when im not so terrified that im gunne get my heart ripped outta my chest and stomped on. but i guess shit happens.. and im guess im not "over it" cuz i wouldnt still be constantly thinking about it and going crazy and crying all the time if i was.. and i would definatley not be bringing it up all the time.. idk what to say i dont kno theres just so much going on right now thats confusing the hell outta me.. theres so many feelings and thoughts all coming back to me.. but there just not the same.. idk its hard.. real hard.. but it could be worse.. i could be going through alot worse and i kno that there is ppl out that who are or who have.. and they read this and are like WTF.. selfish bitch. i guess thats what i am.. but idk
something coorperate and fall out boy is effing amazing.. they make me think and i love it.
i wanna go to warped tour sooo effing bad.
look at all the bands.. itll be AMAZING
www.warpedtour.com
woah.
im out peace gays