the run-down
so today im pissed off and tired and sad so im just gonna completely vent:
this weekend was pretty much the worst weekend of my life...Friday i got ditched by my best friend for her boyfriend...i felt like crap...i still do, i dont understand why you would do that to me? i wasnt allowed to go to the stupid resturant with frank and dj and whoever else you should have respected that and stayed with me since we orginally had plans...this isnt the first time you have completely left me for him...i can remember after the jackals game when you left me at cold stone, thank god ali, matty, sam, christen and all them were there cause who know you might have just left me alone by myself...i dont know if you realize that youre hurting me and i just didnt want to casue trouble so i didnt doa nything about it..im not gonna be mean to you and say your an aweful person cause i dont think you are but i just want you to know i dont even think i would come close to doing something like that...if i had known you werent allowed to go somewhere or do something i would stay with you...it just shows who in the end is more important and apprantly i didnt make the cut...
then saturday, i was still pissed about the whole ditch thing and what makes it worse is the fact that she got in a car accident and i felt as if i shouldnt call her...so i didnt....and then matt and shannon and i had a good time at the soda pop shop but little did i know i was hurting someone who is so important to me and was there for me when i was ditched...i felt 100% aweful for doing that and im sorry ali, and sam i am sorry to you as well...i dont know what is wrong with me...maybe im not as nice as a person as i orgianally thought...
sunday was just a ball of unhappiness, the only good thig was that i believe shannon and i got so much closer...i dont think i have ever been more upset...i dont know what to do anymore...
school is not bad but i think the whole idea of not seeing my friends everyday kills me and waking up at 615 and not getting home till 6 wares me out then the homework ugh...today i ended up comming home after pictures because i hadnt slept to much this weekend...so here i am...
i dont know why i wrote all that, its not usually something i would do but i felt the need to put it all out there and to my true friends, i love you guys...
matty, shannon, andrea, ali, amy, christina, sam, and everyone else im close to i love you guys with all my heart and i only want the best for you..
From the heart,
Stephanie
this weekend was pretty much the worst weekend of my life...Friday i got ditched by my best friend for her boyfriend...i felt like crap...i still do, i dont understand why you would do that to me? i wasnt allowed to go to the stupid resturant with frank and dj and whoever else you should have respected that and stayed with me since we orginally had plans...this isnt the first time you have completely left me for him...i can remember after the jackals game when you left me at cold stone, thank god ali, matty, sam, christen and all them were there cause who know you might have just left me alone by myself...i dont know if you realize that youre hurting me and i just didnt want to casue trouble so i didnt doa nything about it..im not gonna be mean to you and say your an aweful person cause i dont think you are but i just want you to know i dont even think i would come close to doing something like that...if i had known you werent allowed to go somewhere or do something i would stay with you...it just shows who in the end is more important and apprantly i didnt make the cut...
then saturday, i was still pissed about the whole ditch thing and what makes it worse is the fact that she got in a car accident and i felt as if i shouldnt call her...so i didnt....and then matt and shannon and i had a good time at the soda pop shop but little did i know i was hurting someone who is so important to me and was there for me when i was ditched...i felt 100% aweful for doing that and im sorry ali, and sam i am sorry to you as well...i dont know what is wrong with me...maybe im not as nice as a person as i orgianally thought...
sunday was just a ball of unhappiness, the only good thig was that i believe shannon and i got so much closer...i dont think i have ever been more upset...i dont know what to do anymore...
school is not bad but i think the whole idea of not seeing my friends everyday kills me and waking up at 615 and not getting home till 6 wares me out then the homework ugh...today i ended up comming home after pictures because i hadnt slept to much this weekend...so here i am...
i dont know why i wrote all that, its not usually something i would do but i felt the need to put it all out there and to my true friends, i love you guys...
matty, shannon, andrea, ali, amy, christina, sam, and everyone else im close to i love you guys with all my heart and i only want the best for you..
From the heart,
Stephanie