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I am scared. I am so scared about fucking up. That this quarter will be like last quarter where I completely crumble at the end. I have no idea what I'm doing. I have little direction. I don't know what to do with my interests.
I'm trying so hard to actually do something, but I feel like I'm failing again and again.
I was blindsided by boy last night... He purposefully humiliated me to get out of a conversation and to take his anger out on someone(s). I don't know what to say to that. He's apologized... sincerely although with plenty of assitude in there. I have nothing to say to him right now. Maybe this evening I will? I just don't know.
All this is no fun... I hope my fear will save me in some perverse way...
I'm trying so hard to actually do something, but I feel like I'm failing again and again.
I was blindsided by boy last night... He purposefully humiliated me to get out of a conversation and to take his anger out on someone(s). I don't know what to say to that. He's apologized... sincerely although with plenty of assitude in there. I have nothing to say to him right now. Maybe this evening I will? I just don't know.
All this is no fun... I hope my fear will save me in some perverse way...