I HOPE YOU DONt have this name on a FRIENDS list
because honestly i just go ON and ON and ON and ON...
it's like therapy...and i can't just write it for myself because that feels lame...but somehow, to know that people could find it if they tried makes it all worth it.
I forgot what I was going to say.
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Oh, right, i was going to talk all about jumping people, and why I probably shouldn't. Mostly I was just going to ramble. I saw my most recent Xboyfriend's film tonight at my screening, and it was pretty good. At first I didn't even want to admit that, but honestly I found it utterly entertaining. I don't think he felt the same way about mine... because he asked which one it was... (I put a film by "rachel mercy"...note to self: don't date people who do not know your middle name)... then he never commented, just said "Ah, I must have missed the credits on that one). Fuck that. ANYWAY, I started thinking, GEE, what about this person did I all of the sudden decide really bugged me?
So lets think about this.
*he looked at me in that dopey "i like you" way.
*he just waited for me to say things all the time
*he walks funny (YES this IS important)
*he was too into having a girlfriend, just for the sake of having a girflriend
*he said "hey, it's college" way too much- this cheapens things
But what it all really comes down to is that age old problem I have. No matter what, I'm always looking for a best friend AS WELL AS a boyfriend, so if people don't have the same hangups as I do, or like to participate in similar activities, i cannot justify spending the necessary time with them. Ah... Tis pity, for if there's someone out there enough like me for me to date, chances are they'll be really ugly, and i'll HATE them.
Hahaha. at 11:11 tonight, my wish was that someone elses wish involved me. tsk tsk.
it's like therapy...and i can't just write it for myself because that feels lame...but somehow, to know that people could find it if they tried makes it all worth it.
I forgot what I was going to say.
.
.
.
Oh, right, i was going to talk all about jumping people, and why I probably shouldn't. Mostly I was just going to ramble. I saw my most recent Xboyfriend's film tonight at my screening, and it was pretty good. At first I didn't even want to admit that, but honestly I found it utterly entertaining. I don't think he felt the same way about mine... because he asked which one it was... (I put a film by "rachel mercy"...note to self: don't date people who do not know your middle name)... then he never commented, just said "Ah, I must have missed the credits on that one). Fuck that. ANYWAY, I started thinking, GEE, what about this person did I all of the sudden decide really bugged me?
So lets think about this.
*he looked at me in that dopey "i like you" way.
*he just waited for me to say things all the time
*he walks funny (YES this IS important)
*he was too into having a girlfriend, just for the sake of having a girflriend
*he said "hey, it's college" way too much- this cheapens things
But what it all really comes down to is that age old problem I have. No matter what, I'm always looking for a best friend AS WELL AS a boyfriend, so if people don't have the same hangups as I do, or like to participate in similar activities, i cannot justify spending the necessary time with them. Ah... Tis pity, for if there's someone out there enough like me for me to date, chances are they'll be really ugly, and i'll HATE them.
Hahaha. at 11:11 tonight, my wish was that someone elses wish involved me. tsk tsk.