wow!!!!!
so many things to think about!!!! the only problem is that there's no time to do it. going to school and working 20-30 hours on top of that, finding the time to try to see my family, where can i find more time???? i have been sick this whole week and barely have a voice. which is great at work, let me tell you. would you want to order food from someone who's obviously sick??? its not fun. but at least i know why i get so may sinus problems. i have a deviated septum. and the stuff around that is swollen which makes my allergies seem like sinus problems. so i don't have sinus problems, my sinuses are actually quite clear. so i tried to schedule my surgery in may, when the nurse told me that since i've had so many sore throats this past year, i should also have the doctor look at my tonsils, and then depending won what he says, those will come out too!! yay!!!! if that happens, they might as well gut my face out. and apparently its really hard the older you get to recover from a tonsilectomy. i only have 2 weeks from the time finals are over, which is also when my entire family will be here (both sides) for my sister's graduation, and when i have to start summer school and my internship. hopefully i can recover in time for my internship other wise i'll have to postpone it 'til i don't know when. but on the plus side, with 12 hours this summer, 14 hours in the fall, and 15 in the spring, i'll graduate. i'm so ready. but it scares the living day lights out of me. just like a 10 month relationship. we've been together 10 months and have been crazy about one another for an entire year, and still not sick of each other. in fact, we love each other and its real, not fake and not wrapped up in the moment and excitement of things. i can't believe it. it wonderful and scary all at the same time. he's amazing and incredible and he still makes me melt with the smallest, slightest touch. i'm so lucky. the whole thing is amazing and confusing and wonderful and terrifying all at once. i love it!