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We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet... I mean, what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day. You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness'.
- Shall We Dance
Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. And intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you'll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way.
- Janet Fitch, White Oleander
Is it human nature to marvel at an evening sky that's half dead? Does our transience prevent us from knowing better?
I suppose I'm much more foolish than most people though. A dead star still has its light to show for but a gray sleeping smiley is useless. Nonetheless I still always go online to check if at least one is yellow and smiling back at me. And even if there are none, I'll leave it lying there until I hear that familiar ding. It often never comes though.
I've chosen my path and am following it. They've chosen their paths too. We all have, and we must walk them - ultimately - alone. By this I mean that only we will experience what we experience and everything that happens in our lives is personal. Only we are there for us all of the time. And only we sense and feel what we sense and feel. Two people will never have the same version of the same event, what more a life time? Nonetheless we try our hardest to have someone watch us and to watch someone else other than ourselves. Sometimes we try too hard and we forget that loneliness is the human condition. When we forget and when there is nobody to watch and nobody to watch you, what then do you do?