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*i hate being sick. and i'm also so stressed that i feel even worse.
*i was pretty much on the verge of tears at dinner with my grandpa, aunt, n parents tonight. and it seriously happens every time. you're always asked about and i have to force myself to keep from crying.
*finally...you were there and i could leave them. i'm glad i did. but i know nothing will change, and i wish i would stop thinking it will cuz then i get my hopes up and that just makes it worse. i don't think i should've been driving after that either cuz i was shaking so bad.
more complaining but it's what's on my mind.
miss you.
*i was pretty much on the verge of tears at dinner with my grandpa, aunt, n parents tonight. and it seriously happens every time. you're always asked about and i have to force myself to keep from crying.
*finally...you were there and i could leave them. i'm glad i did. but i know nothing will change, and i wish i would stop thinking it will cuz then i get my hopes up and that just makes it worse. i don't think i should've been driving after that either cuz i was shaking so bad.
more complaining but it's what's on my mind.
miss you.