It's Been A While....
Yeah, it's been a helluva long time since I've updated this thing. Well, let's see what I've been up to... There really isn't much to tell, I guess.... much that's interesting, anyway.
Hrm... Well, here's a good way to start things off. For those of you who don't know, me and Christa (The girl I've loved and have wanted to go out with for two years since I met her) are no more. We started hanging out again at the beginning of December, and things seemed to be going pretty well (from what I thought anyway). I even bought her a nice gold ring that she wanted for Christmas. But, basically on New Years, she started acting like a bitch and more or less ignored me that night. Then she had the nerve to tell me that she not only doesn't want a boyfriend (after she told her mom she wants to go out with me), but she also said I freak her out and she doesn't like me touching her. I'm leaving out some details I don't feel like typing, but yeah... That was basically a pretty shitty night and we're through, which sucks - bad. The thing that really pisses me off is that she told her friends that -I- ruined her New Years, even though I didn't do anything... and she keeps telling Carly to tell me she said hi. Goddamn, her logic really baffles me sometimes.
One of the court things for the kid that killed my cousin was a few weeks ago. Basically, they didnt do much other than go over his charges and tell him he has to go to another court to actually get a sentence. So, we still have to wait to see what happens, I guess.
I started snowboarding this winter. I even bought all my own stuff. I haven't gone as much as I'd like though for multiple reasons. I'm still hoping to go some more before winter's over.
I started playing Ragnarok Online again. I'm not really sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I'm just as addicted as ever. And since life seems pretty crappy right now, it's an escape from reality again. Most of my time these days go towards that game. Oh well... It's not like there's much else to do around here.
Adam joined the Navy. He's leaving in about a month from now for bootcamp or something. March 17th is the day he's scheduled to leave. It's going to suck without him around. He's one of my best friends, and really one of the few people I can tolerate in this area anymore. I hope he does well in the Navy though. It'll be good for him. At least he's actually doing something with his life, unlike all my other friends.... and myself... *sigh*
One cool thing I almost forgot about... Yesterday, me, Adam and his cousin, Ben, were driving around. Adam was driving and I was sitting in the front seat. I just kept honking the horn at random times just to be a dickhead. So, we're driving and we come to a stop light in Natrona Heights and so, like... I honk the horn and this dude gets out of the car in front of us and he's all pissed off. He walks up to our car and comes up to the window and flashes some sort of badge and was like "Do you guys have a problem?" I was like "Uh.. no" and he's like "Well, then quit honking the horn." and he just walked back to his car in a pissed off marching manner. It was cool.
Hm... Let's see. What else is there to say? Oh yeah. I'm going to be pretty effin' tired until the 24th, starting tomorrow. Roger's going on vacation, so I'm going to be the only delivery guy at work. Which means, until he comes back, I'm working every day we're open, open until close. That's like... 66 hours a week. But, despite that fact of how tired I'm going to be, I won't really mind it because I'll be getting a lot of money. I could always use more money, especially since I'm so close to being out of debt.
I think that about covers everything. There's not much left to say until my next journal entry. For those of you who actually read this... sorry I haven't been updating. I've just been lazy. I'll try to update more. But, I'm going to close this entry with one of my favorite songs... and I'm going to dedicate it to Christa, even though she'll probably never read it... but you never know. Anyway, it's called "Eyes Wide Shut" by Project Wyze.
Tangled in the webs that she weaves
Dangling in disbelief, trapped i can't breath
She's the one that left me
Stranded feelin' empty
Now I'm all alone readin the letters that she sent me
Tired of playing games
Tired of being in last place
I move too fast pace, who are you to judge
If only you could love the way you hate me, everythings so shaky
Broken, lost, crushed, all the above
Too many mistakes, too many bad breaks and bad luck
Too many lies and closed eyes, now I'm stuck in a bad rut
You said you'd be committed from the beginning to the end
I can't believe you said we're better off just being friends
I can't believe this
You can just walk away
I can't believe this
each and every other day
I can't believe this
Now my mind is blown
I can't believe
That I am all alone
Chorus:
EYES, into a place that I take you
WIDE, you see I just can't replace you
SHUT, and now my heart breaks in two
Follow, follow, Eyes Wide Shut
You thought you left my empty handed, stranded and broken hearted
Mistreated and cheated so take it back to where we started
To the first time we met and the first time we kissed
Together forever, well what have I missed
If only you could see just how I feel and what you mean to me
I never thought that you could walk away so easily
You said you needed space, now you're out hanging with him
You said we can't be lovers so I know we can't be friends
I can't believe this
You can just walk away
I can't believe this
Each and every other day
I can't believe this
Now my mind is blown
I can't believe
That I am all alone
Just the other day
I looked at her, she looked at me and then she walked away
'Cause I never really understood why
She could pass me by without giving us another try
So tell me what you're looking for
'Cause I don't know no more
All I know is that I feel just like my hearts been torn
And I thought I was more than just a friend
And now you're leaving me in the very end
And my vision is a blur
All I really know is that I loved her, I loved her
I can't believe this
You can just walk away
I can't believe this
Each and every other day
I can't believe this
Now my mind is blown
I can't believe
That I am all alone...
Hrm... Well, here's a good way to start things off. For those of you who don't know, me and Christa (The girl I've loved and have wanted to go out with for two years since I met her) are no more. We started hanging out again at the beginning of December, and things seemed to be going pretty well (from what I thought anyway). I even bought her a nice gold ring that she wanted for Christmas. But, basically on New Years, she started acting like a bitch and more or less ignored me that night. Then she had the nerve to tell me that she not only doesn't want a boyfriend (after she told her mom she wants to go out with me), but she also said I freak her out and she doesn't like me touching her. I'm leaving out some details I don't feel like typing, but yeah... That was basically a pretty shitty night and we're through, which sucks - bad. The thing that really pisses me off is that she told her friends that -I- ruined her New Years, even though I didn't do anything... and she keeps telling Carly to tell me she said hi. Goddamn, her logic really baffles me sometimes.
One of the court things for the kid that killed my cousin was a few weeks ago. Basically, they didnt do much other than go over his charges and tell him he has to go to another court to actually get a sentence. So, we still have to wait to see what happens, I guess.
I started snowboarding this winter. I even bought all my own stuff. I haven't gone as much as I'd like though for multiple reasons. I'm still hoping to go some more before winter's over.
I started playing Ragnarok Online again. I'm not really sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I'm just as addicted as ever. And since life seems pretty crappy right now, it's an escape from reality again. Most of my time these days go towards that game. Oh well... It's not like there's much else to do around here.
Adam joined the Navy. He's leaving in about a month from now for bootcamp or something. March 17th is the day he's scheduled to leave. It's going to suck without him around. He's one of my best friends, and really one of the few people I can tolerate in this area anymore. I hope he does well in the Navy though. It'll be good for him. At least he's actually doing something with his life, unlike all my other friends.... and myself... *sigh*
One cool thing I almost forgot about... Yesterday, me, Adam and his cousin, Ben, were driving around. Adam was driving and I was sitting in the front seat. I just kept honking the horn at random times just to be a dickhead. So, we're driving and we come to a stop light in Natrona Heights and so, like... I honk the horn and this dude gets out of the car in front of us and he's all pissed off. He walks up to our car and comes up to the window and flashes some sort of badge and was like "Do you guys have a problem?" I was like "Uh.. no" and he's like "Well, then quit honking the horn." and he just walked back to his car in a pissed off marching manner. It was cool.
Hm... Let's see. What else is there to say? Oh yeah. I'm going to be pretty effin' tired until the 24th, starting tomorrow. Roger's going on vacation, so I'm going to be the only delivery guy at work. Which means, until he comes back, I'm working every day we're open, open until close. That's like... 66 hours a week. But, despite that fact of how tired I'm going to be, I won't really mind it because I'll be getting a lot of money. I could always use more money, especially since I'm so close to being out of debt.
I think that about covers everything. There's not much left to say until my next journal entry. For those of you who actually read this... sorry I haven't been updating. I've just been lazy. I'll try to update more. But, I'm going to close this entry with one of my favorite songs... and I'm going to dedicate it to Christa, even though she'll probably never read it... but you never know. Anyway, it's called "Eyes Wide Shut" by Project Wyze.
Tangled in the webs that she weaves
Dangling in disbelief, trapped i can't breath
She's the one that left me
Stranded feelin' empty
Now I'm all alone readin the letters that she sent me
Tired of playing games
Tired of being in last place
I move too fast pace, who are you to judge
If only you could love the way you hate me, everythings so shaky
Broken, lost, crushed, all the above
Too many mistakes, too many bad breaks and bad luck
Too many lies and closed eyes, now I'm stuck in a bad rut
You said you'd be committed from the beginning to the end
I can't believe you said we're better off just being friends
I can't believe this
You can just walk away
I can't believe this
each and every other day
I can't believe this
Now my mind is blown
I can't believe
That I am all alone
Chorus:
EYES, into a place that I take you
WIDE, you see I just can't replace you
SHUT, and now my heart breaks in two
Follow, follow, Eyes Wide Shut
You thought you left my empty handed, stranded and broken hearted
Mistreated and cheated so take it back to where we started
To the first time we met and the first time we kissed
Together forever, well what have I missed
If only you could see just how I feel and what you mean to me
I never thought that you could walk away so easily
You said you needed space, now you're out hanging with him
You said we can't be lovers so I know we can't be friends
I can't believe this
You can just walk away
I can't believe this
Each and every other day
I can't believe this
Now my mind is blown
I can't believe
That I am all alone
Just the other day
I looked at her, she looked at me and then she walked away
'Cause I never really understood why
She could pass me by without giving us another try
So tell me what you're looking for
'Cause I don't know no more
All I know is that I feel just like my hearts been torn
And I thought I was more than just a friend
And now you're leaving me in the very end
And my vision is a blur
All I really know is that I loved her, I loved her
I can't believe this
You can just walk away
I can't believe this
Each and every other day
I can't believe this
Now my mind is blown
I can't believe
That I am all alone...