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Here's a lovely letter from mary I just got
Included were native new mexican plants, and photos she took
Why hello mr. lucero
I just got off the phone with you but you eventually had to ditch me for stupid school What WILL it dot o you? hmm...
I gotta go to work in about 15 minutes, it takes about 4 minutes to get there. I hope all is well in San Diego. Dont be discouraged that noone is calling you. They just haven't truly gotten to know you, soon...oh soon they will understand you.
Today is a beautiful day as well. We've had very few bad days for awhile. As long as the wind says to a brezze I'll be happy. But fuck the wind, it's so crazy how much weather effects people. It makes people actually louse their minds and want to kill themseleves.
The kittens (pete's) are doing really well. They're really healthy aand happy. I've recorded their whole lives since the day they were born. Well...not the WHOLE thing, just clips of every other day, then week. Y'know...just toi get the point across that they had been growing at an incredibly fast rate. I'll show you the video when I see you again. They'll be all taken away by the time you get here. We got enough people to adopt them all. It's all cute, two of them are gonna go next door. So she'll still be by some of them. It's good for them. Jon's finally getting her spayed.
OH SHIT! I saw becky the other day walking this largedog across the Mc Donald's parking lot. She was with her boyfriend Vic. Anywhoosle, apparently she found the dog in the paper and decided to adopt her. She (Roxio) looks like she's half if not all great dane. Big fuckin' dog. She seemed happy about it, though. So yeah, it's good times. Her boyfriend is all funny, he's like josh's age & doesn't do ANYTHING, ever. It's a perfect match for Ms. Becky. Hell, as long as she's happy and what not, they're all cute if you don't think too far into it.
I'm at stupid work and it's okay. Ho's your work going? you never talk about it, EVER. It can't be that bad at a pet place. The sun's shining nice and bright on my face, damn sun everyone can see me in the whole damn store.
9:20 pm
okay, now the sun is down and night has officially begun, the woman just came in and i aksed her if she needed help. She just wanted someone to walk her to her car because she saw a creepy looking character in the parking lot. So i went outside with her. It's all sad that this woman can be so scared. That'd be shitty to be convinced that you're worried, poor thing.
I've been trying to call hannah and she wont answer her phone for the life of her. It's so frustrating when you really got talk to someone and you can't, oh well huh.
[I'm home finally. No, today went by extremely fast. I keep looking at the clock and surprising myself. I love when that happens.
It's so fucked up, National Geographic was trying to charge me 34 dollars for a year subscription even though I've already had it for a year. now I see a 19 dollar courtsey voucher, what the hell is that?
So anywhoosle. I've bee thinking about life and all I've come upon.
Being on hold is so frustrating cause you know SOMEONE is on the other line doing something. And there can't possibly be a full staff totally and completely busy. I just don't take that for an answer.
I barely even remember how we all chose to go to chicago last year and I certainly had no idea you were as interested as you were. Maybe I just assumed you were completely broke and didn't even bother asking. So on behalf of the whole chicago crew, WE APOLOGIZE. But you know what? you and i shouold try and go. I'd be so happy to go again. All you gotta do is get out of debt. Indeed.
I can't believe you got a motherfucking credit card. That was sooooo not a good idea. Somtiems I'm just mind boggled by you. It's crazy. But I know you'll figure it out. You always do.
It's been about an hour and three mns and tech support hasn't called me back yet. I did this the other day. All this time wasted. I'm getting a little irritated. I didn't mind the first time or even this time, until now...it's getting there.
Remember when I told you about that credit card? well I found out that the guy is pretty damned crazy and actually changes his name lal the time. Just some crazy white dude that rides funky bikes that his own hands have built. Oh yeah, crazy FUNKY BICYCLES.
may 13:
today's a hotty. my face started sweating all nasty when i was laying in hanna's back yard. we were eating homemade burritos. mm burritos. Hey you're close to the border, there's gotta be some decent burrito's out there, right?
smoke break.
There's a police car outside and they make me nervous
Lately I've been contemplating my ordinary life and wondering what i'll do next. Life as a whole of now is donerful. I'm so happy wit hthe situations i've managed to put myself into. I have a job, some money saved and a lot of ambition to keep moving. Changes are relevent for life and i'd like to do sow. Y'know that plan with bridgette? yeah, well, it's agreat pland and I'd love more than anything to continue that idea to it's fullest w/ her. It's just that the more I think about it, Bridgette is about two steps behind in the financial part. She hasn't saved a dime. She tells me she's broke all the time and moving out to a city like portland, you've gotta have the funds. I'm not picturing her as a slacker in any sense or anything. I know she'll get shit togther eventually. Bridgette orks very hard for everything she has. She's great. But I don't think she'll be prepahred to move this time next year. It just doesn't seem liekly. Who's to say? maybe I'm way off.
But on that note, I've been thinking of other places and of course San Diego pops into my head. I've had such a craving for the beach. Oh the wonderful water, yes indeed. San diego.
Even before I went to see you out there I experienced iot with Danielle silvea. Her and I went out there from Oakland and it was so much fun. WE sat on the beach drinking 40's w/ absolutely no distractions. It was perfect. And you have no idea how much I'd like to doi that again. I'm so anxious to be out there for just a few days, It's awesome.
I need the ocean by my side. I wanna taste the salty drops in my mouth. I wanna get bashed and smashed by the waves. I miss it and living in the hot desert is helping me realize this much more. it is home, california that is.
But i've even thought to myself that i could never move back to california. And I meant it at the time. But I saw something in San Diego that I never thought I could see in Any part of Southern California, but SD saved so-cals ass. And I don't mean to sound like a hippy but SD has "awesome vibes"
Anywhoosle, that's something to chew on. a really good thoughts.
I think it's gonna become a keeper. I just need another grand or something then I could go nad live comfortably until i find another source of income. And hell, maybe I could snag you from your parent and find a different place to reside. You could trust me right? Wow it makes os much sense. Then I'd be close to my family.
Tell me what you think...Shall it be sometime in the near future?
I watched that decpaitating head thin on jon's computer. It was pretty sick but not shocking at all. Those people in Iraq are angry. Who not kill some stupid american trying to esblish himself on their land. It's weird, though. To think someone could possibly be so cruel. It was viscious stuff, man. He was alive one second, trying to scream, the next second then nothing totally dead.
I just screwed somet light bulbs in some empy sockets. Now i can see what i'm writing, it's nice. Bryce is on the couch reading this book called "wise guy" it's about mafia shit. He's all obsessed with that scene. It's just a bryce kind of thing to do.
Today him and i went shovel shopping. We4 ended up going to rowlands for one. Rowlands is so much fucking fun. IT's so pretty right now, everything is bloom. I got four little eggplant plands and some SANDIA peppers. They're gonnab e so good in about 70 days. yep 70 days. You'll see. Gardening has become a hobby for me this spring. I planted all kinds of flowersr on the side of the house and i have onions growing out back along with garlic and green onions. It's so much fun to see things grow.
The oldies from the 50's and 60's are so fucking great. Every song has it's special feeling to it. Even thougth they're rambling aon and on and on about sad things. It makes me happy to hear it, it's the way they sing, the tones, the music.
There's no turning back now
my fate is traced in blood
i've tasted the true salvation
your power is my drug
Long ago and far away I heard your voice
and once I heard you sing yoru song
I had no choice
terror took control
it told me what to say
I'm letting lose of fear
I finally found a way
-blue oyster cult
When such real problems are solved, it's only because people have excersized their imaginary powers - bruce brown
Hannah wants to go out to australia and to go to school for a semester or so. She's really considering it. I told her she has to allow me to mooch off her when I go visit. I think she agreeed. That'd be so fucking cool. She'd have an awesome time. She wants to escape from this crazy place just as much as me. We're on the same road.
I'm not sure if you ever met hannah's oklahoman friends whent hey came out to stay with us on Gold. But I'm pretty sure you did. Well, her ex boyfrien'ds now girlfriend was in a terrible car accident on the way to oklahoma from durango and she is now in an emergency room somewhere in oklahahoma city. She's holding on for hr life. The doctors had her on life support for a while or so. Then they took her off and her brain began to swell inside her skull. So they had to cut open one half of her skull so her brain could swell without cracking it. (the same exact thing happened to my step-sister)
Kali is her name, she's in the hospital today due to a light look down on the floor boards while driving. The driver behind her apparently saw her look down for something and lost control of her her car and ended up flipping it a total of 8 times crusher her arms and legs. Michael is definietliy on hanna's mind lately. He really loves this girl and hanna still cares a lot about him. They were really close at one point, he's an extremely sensitive guy, hannah's worried about him.
Kali was on her way back to oklahoma from school in colorado to live closer to michael.
It makes me think a whole lot of my step sister. She got fucked up because she was sledding, her entire life was put on hold for who knows how long and she barely remembers anything. It's a difficult situation and I can understand and feel exactly what they're feeling and experienceing. We all had to worry and wonder while in the hospital for a year. Help send uplifting thoughts towards kali, sh needs it so muche
Included were native new mexican plants, and photos she took
Why hello mr. lucero
I just got off the phone with you but you eventually had to ditch me for stupid school What WILL it dot o you? hmm...
I gotta go to work in about 15 minutes, it takes about 4 minutes to get there. I hope all is well in San Diego. Dont be discouraged that noone is calling you. They just haven't truly gotten to know you, soon...oh soon they will understand you.
Today is a beautiful day as well. We've had very few bad days for awhile. As long as the wind says to a brezze I'll be happy. But fuck the wind, it's so crazy how much weather effects people. It makes people actually louse their minds and want to kill themseleves.
The kittens (pete's) are doing really well. They're really healthy aand happy. I've recorded their whole lives since the day they were born. Well...not the WHOLE thing, just clips of every other day, then week. Y'know...just toi get the point across that they had been growing at an incredibly fast rate. I'll show you the video when I see you again. They'll be all taken away by the time you get here. We got enough people to adopt them all. It's all cute, two of them are gonna go next door. So she'll still be by some of them. It's good for them. Jon's finally getting her spayed.
OH SHIT! I saw becky the other day walking this largedog across the Mc Donald's parking lot. She was with her boyfriend Vic. Anywhoosle, apparently she found the dog in the paper and decided to adopt her. She (Roxio) looks like she's half if not all great dane. Big fuckin' dog. She seemed happy about it, though. So yeah, it's good times. Her boyfriend is all funny, he's like josh's age & doesn't do ANYTHING, ever. It's a perfect match for Ms. Becky. Hell, as long as she's happy and what not, they're all cute if you don't think too far into it.
I'm at stupid work and it's okay. Ho's your work going? you never talk about it, EVER. It can't be that bad at a pet place. The sun's shining nice and bright on my face, damn sun everyone can see me in the whole damn store.
9:20 pm
okay, now the sun is down and night has officially begun, the woman just came in and i aksed her if she needed help. She just wanted someone to walk her to her car because she saw a creepy looking character in the parking lot. So i went outside with her. It's all sad that this woman can be so scared. That'd be shitty to be convinced that you're worried, poor thing.
I've been trying to call hannah and she wont answer her phone for the life of her. It's so frustrating when you really got talk to someone and you can't, oh well huh.
[I'm home finally. No, today went by extremely fast. I keep looking at the clock and surprising myself. I love when that happens.
It's so fucked up, National Geographic was trying to charge me 34 dollars for a year subscription even though I've already had it for a year. now I see a 19 dollar courtsey voucher, what the hell is that?
So anywhoosle. I've bee thinking about life and all I've come upon.
Being on hold is so frustrating cause you know SOMEONE is on the other line doing something. And there can't possibly be a full staff totally and completely busy. I just don't take that for an answer.
I barely even remember how we all chose to go to chicago last year and I certainly had no idea you were as interested as you were. Maybe I just assumed you were completely broke and didn't even bother asking. So on behalf of the whole chicago crew, WE APOLOGIZE. But you know what? you and i shouold try and go. I'd be so happy to go again. All you gotta do is get out of debt. Indeed.
I can't believe you got a motherfucking credit card. That was sooooo not a good idea. Somtiems I'm just mind boggled by you. It's crazy. But I know you'll figure it out. You always do.
It's been about an hour and three mns and tech support hasn't called me back yet. I did this the other day. All this time wasted. I'm getting a little irritated. I didn't mind the first time or even this time, until now...it's getting there.
Remember when I told you about that credit card? well I found out that the guy is pretty damned crazy and actually changes his name lal the time. Just some crazy white dude that rides funky bikes that his own hands have built. Oh yeah, crazy FUNKY BICYCLES.
may 13:
today's a hotty. my face started sweating all nasty when i was laying in hanna's back yard. we were eating homemade burritos. mm burritos. Hey you're close to the border, there's gotta be some decent burrito's out there, right?
smoke break.
There's a police car outside and they make me nervous
Lately I've been contemplating my ordinary life and wondering what i'll do next. Life as a whole of now is donerful. I'm so happy wit hthe situations i've managed to put myself into. I have a job, some money saved and a lot of ambition to keep moving. Changes are relevent for life and i'd like to do sow. Y'know that plan with bridgette? yeah, well, it's agreat pland and I'd love more than anything to continue that idea to it's fullest w/ her. It's just that the more I think about it, Bridgette is about two steps behind in the financial part. She hasn't saved a dime. She tells me she's broke all the time and moving out to a city like portland, you've gotta have the funds. I'm not picturing her as a slacker in any sense or anything. I know she'll get shit togther eventually. Bridgette orks very hard for everything she has. She's great. But I don't think she'll be prepahred to move this time next year. It just doesn't seem liekly. Who's to say? maybe I'm way off.
But on that note, I've been thinking of other places and of course San Diego pops into my head. I've had such a craving for the beach. Oh the wonderful water, yes indeed. San diego.
Even before I went to see you out there I experienced iot with Danielle silvea. Her and I went out there from Oakland and it was so much fun. WE sat on the beach drinking 40's w/ absolutely no distractions. It was perfect. And you have no idea how much I'd like to doi that again. I'm so anxious to be out there for just a few days, It's awesome.
I need the ocean by my side. I wanna taste the salty drops in my mouth. I wanna get bashed and smashed by the waves. I miss it and living in the hot desert is helping me realize this much more. it is home, california that is.
But i've even thought to myself that i could never move back to california. And I meant it at the time. But I saw something in San Diego that I never thought I could see in Any part of Southern California, but SD saved so-cals ass. And I don't mean to sound like a hippy but SD has "awesome vibes"
Anywhoosle, that's something to chew on. a really good thoughts.
I think it's gonna become a keeper. I just need another grand or something then I could go nad live comfortably until i find another source of income. And hell, maybe I could snag you from your parent and find a different place to reside. You could trust me right? Wow it makes os much sense. Then I'd be close to my family.
Tell me what you think...Shall it be sometime in the near future?
I watched that decpaitating head thin on jon's computer. It was pretty sick but not shocking at all. Those people in Iraq are angry. Who not kill some stupid american trying to esblish himself on their land. It's weird, though. To think someone could possibly be so cruel. It was viscious stuff, man. He was alive one second, trying to scream, the next second then nothing totally dead.
I just screwed somet light bulbs in some empy sockets. Now i can see what i'm writing, it's nice. Bryce is on the couch reading this book called "wise guy" it's about mafia shit. He's all obsessed with that scene. It's just a bryce kind of thing to do.
Today him and i went shovel shopping. We4 ended up going to rowlands for one. Rowlands is so much fucking fun. IT's so pretty right now, everything is bloom. I got four little eggplant plands and some SANDIA peppers. They're gonnab e so good in about 70 days. yep 70 days. You'll see. Gardening has become a hobby for me this spring. I planted all kinds of flowersr on the side of the house and i have onions growing out back along with garlic and green onions. It's so much fun to see things grow.
The oldies from the 50's and 60's are so fucking great. Every song has it's special feeling to it. Even thougth they're rambling aon and on and on about sad things. It makes me happy to hear it, it's the way they sing, the tones, the music.
There's no turning back now
my fate is traced in blood
i've tasted the true salvation
your power is my drug
Long ago and far away I heard your voice
and once I heard you sing yoru song
I had no choice
terror took control
it told me what to say
I'm letting lose of fear
I finally found a way
-blue oyster cult
When such real problems are solved, it's only because people have excersized their imaginary powers - bruce brown
Hannah wants to go out to australia and to go to school for a semester or so. She's really considering it. I told her she has to allow me to mooch off her when I go visit. I think she agreeed. That'd be so fucking cool. She'd have an awesome time. She wants to escape from this crazy place just as much as me. We're on the same road.
I'm not sure if you ever met hannah's oklahoman friends whent hey came out to stay with us on Gold. But I'm pretty sure you did. Well, her ex boyfrien'ds now girlfriend was in a terrible car accident on the way to oklahoma from durango and she is now in an emergency room somewhere in oklahahoma city. She's holding on for hr life. The doctors had her on life support for a while or so. Then they took her off and her brain began to swell inside her skull. So they had to cut open one half of her skull so her brain could swell without cracking it. (the same exact thing happened to my step-sister)
Kali is her name, she's in the hospital today due to a light look down on the floor boards while driving. The driver behind her apparently saw her look down for something and lost control of her her car and ended up flipping it a total of 8 times crusher her arms and legs. Michael is definietliy on hanna's mind lately. He really loves this girl and hanna still cares a lot about him. They were really close at one point, he's an extremely sensitive guy, hannah's worried about him.
Kali was on her way back to oklahoma from school in colorado to live closer to michael.
It makes me think a whole lot of my step sister. She got fucked up because she was sledding, her entire life was put on hold for who knows how long and she barely remembers anything. It's a difficult situation and I can understand and feel exactly what they're feeling and experienceing. We all had to worry and wonder while in the hospital for a year. Help send uplifting thoughts towards kali, sh needs it so muche