I'm just so tired. Won't you sing me to sleep?

[polymorphdtroll]

How do you know which priorities in your life are more important than others? How do you know which ones you should give up for the sake of others? Should you take a chance at one goal, knowing that not only may you not achieve it, but also that in doing so you've fucked yourself at ever achieving a differing one? How do you know if you're just comfortable with the way things are versus being devoted? How do you know if your devotion is just a matter of circumstance? At what point do you have to step back and say 'y'know, this doesn't seem quite right...'. So what if it's not true devotion? Is it really so bad to hold on to something that may not be real if you realise this about it? Or is it just stupid? What's wrong with being with your best friend if you're not sure you can really consider yourselves significant others anymore? Can't you just call it that and be done with it? It's like making a deal with someone that if neither of you are married by the time you're thirty, you marry each other.

I don't know what I'm talking about here. Trying to prompt an outpouring of emotion, but none of this is really striking my heart. Maybe that's a good thing. Or maybe I'm just too apathetic tonight to care.