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I took a Lortab tonight. I wish I could feel like this all the time. Like I'm not bored and I'm getting things done or at least going to get things done. In my 2d class three semesters ago, I'd take a lortab almost every day before class and I always had my best ideas on those days. My computer is being very slow right now and it's pissing me off. It bothers me when friends ditch me. It bothers me when I inadvertantly ditch people. I hate being a bad friend. I hate having bad friends. I found out tonight that a friend of mine who I thought had his shit together and was doing well in life is actually miserable and depressed and very very cynical. I wish I could get up early enough in the morning to accomplish something. I'm discovering that depending on myself is all I need. I love life right now, just wish I was better at taking advantage of it.