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Yesterday night I talked to Gary civilly for the first time since Ciaran was born really, and it was really really weird. I thought that i would still be really angry with him.. but I'm not- I'm just interested in closure. He apologised for everything.. which I did accept, even though I don't know of anything that could make up for what he did, or make it "better". He said that the past 5 months have been really hard for him, and that he has paid for everything he's done- his son only got out of hospital on the first of January- Connor was born premature a week after Ciaran was born, and only weighed 657 grams- and almost didn't make it- so that has been really hard for him, especially when you add Ciaran dying to the equation. I'm not justifying what he's done- far from it- I'm trying really hard for empathy, and an understanding of how he is feeling. I think I am almost there.