life
Life's been interesting lately.
And, by interesting, I mean totally effed up. Lots of ups and downs, lots of trying to figure out what end is up, lots of feeling like crawling in to a dark, dank corner somewhere, sandwiched between happy moments, too.
I feel like I've lost focus on what's important to me. Short term fixes aren't satiating my overall happiness factor, nor should they. That's part of what creates those up and down cycles.
One area, I'm embarrassed to admit, is that I just can't hold my liquor these days. After losing over 30 pounds in the past year, my standard drink tally for an evening out (three) knocks me on my ass. Hell, even one drink gets me buzzed. After three? Judgement out the window. Three turns to four, or five. My filter disappears and I say thoughtless things. And then? A pretty certain hangover the next day.
I've been on a big health kick lately, eating lots more fresh, local produce, fewer animal products, juice fasting more frequently, and it feels pretty good to take care of myself. Weight is just shedding off. It's not effortless, but it's not painful, either. Giving my body the right tools to repair and recharge. So, what's alcohol doing in the mix? Not a whole hell of a lot of good.
Considering we want to get kid #2 rolling soon, maybe it's not such a bad idea to lay off drinking for now. Wine gives me headaches lately, so that's out for me anyway. Beer is too carby, so that's been out, too. Lately I've gone to low carb vodka based drinks, but I'm gonna cut those out, too. It's one of those short term fixes that just doesn't get me where I want to be, physically or emotionally.
And you know what? Cutting out alcohol isn't sounding all that bad to me.
And, by interesting, I mean totally effed up. Lots of ups and downs, lots of trying to figure out what end is up, lots of feeling like crawling in to a dark, dank corner somewhere, sandwiched between happy moments, too.
I feel like I've lost focus on what's important to me. Short term fixes aren't satiating my overall happiness factor, nor should they. That's part of what creates those up and down cycles.
One area, I'm embarrassed to admit, is that I just can't hold my liquor these days. After losing over 30 pounds in the past year, my standard drink tally for an evening out (three) knocks me on my ass. Hell, even one drink gets me buzzed. After three? Judgement out the window. Three turns to four, or five. My filter disappears and I say thoughtless things. And then? A pretty certain hangover the next day.
I've been on a big health kick lately, eating lots more fresh, local produce, fewer animal products, juice fasting more frequently, and it feels pretty good to take care of myself. Weight is just shedding off. It's not effortless, but it's not painful, either. Giving my body the right tools to repair and recharge. So, what's alcohol doing in the mix? Not a whole hell of a lot of good.
Considering we want to get kid #2 rolling soon, maybe it's not such a bad idea to lay off drinking for now. Wine gives me headaches lately, so that's out for me anyway. Beer is too carby, so that's been out, too. Lately I've gone to low carb vodka based drinks, but I'm gonna cut those out, too. It's one of those short term fixes that just doesn't get me where I want to be, physically or emotionally.
And you know what? Cutting out alcohol isn't sounding all that bad to me.