my outlet

[polydolly]

I feel like crap lately. I'm in this slump and my self esteem is hurting because of it. I've been working so hard to prepare myself for these tests, working my butt off at my job, and still feel like it's not enough. My personal relationships suffer because I've put so much of myself into my work and professional life, and I feel like a bad person and a bad friend. And to make matters worse, I have been socially inept lately... saying the wrong things, not knowing when to shut up and when to let things go. At times it's like an out of body experience for me - I hear myself bragging and being pompous, and yet the words just flow out of my mouth without any filter. It makes me even more depressed.

All work and no play makes me a very unhappy girl.