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I didn't want to just write this so everyone had to see
it...its about my sex

so today i had the best sex...
and i don't know if it was because
he missed me and hadn't seen me in
two weeks or because he knew I
was planning on not seeing him again
and he was trying to
a.) leave on a good note
b.) make up for being selfish before
c.) have the "one" up on me...
which he doesn't because shit
i can appriciate good sex for what it is.
or
d.) try and get me intrested in him again.

which was successful.
I stoped making an effort to see him
a few weeks ago because I wanted to
see if he cared enough to put the effort
into trying to see me...
also because of
work, Zak was here and I hung out with the
family a lot.

well and a lot of other reasons.
I'm a pretty easy girl to please...
I appriciate the little gestures and
don't expect/want much...
however I don't think he cares enough
about me to put in any effort.
it feels like we are just fuck buddies
and i'm definatly not intrested in that.
hopefully things will change
i've already given up on him
so theres little room for further
dissapointment...
only room for improvement. as terrible as that sounds
i hope he at least gets/makes me a card
for Valentines day...or even wishes me
a good one.
bah.