life is funny
Its really funny how things work out. In fact its really funny how life works out. Maybe not how it works out, but how it balances out. Or maybe i have no idea what i am talking about lol. But one thing i do know is that everything will be ok. Its always been ok, i just havent seen it. I have choose to look at all the bad things and made them out look the good things. I look back at this semester and now i can just laugh. A week ago i thought it was one of the worst times ever, and that i would never make it through. Now i laugh at that thought. Not because i made it through, but because i knew all along i could. I will admit that towards the end of this semester i was worse off mentally and emotionally then i have been in a while but really there was no doubt that i would make it through. Every night i would talk to friends(mostly kianna) and just go on and on about unhappy i was. And i wasnt lieing, i really was mad at the world, mostly myself. And some nights i just wanted to never wake up. I kept telling my self that it was my friends that kept me going and in a sense it was. But i wasnt doing it for them. They were doing it for me. They were showing me what i really felt. Or more of what i was scared to feel at the time. They really were showing me everything that made life awesome. I am not saying everything is all good or that i have turned from a compelete pesimist to an optimist. I am not even saying that i am ok. I just know that if i made it through all of those thoughts and feelings and everything that i hated so much, then everything has the possiblity of being ok. One can hope, and i will. And with that, let the summer begin.