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May I never come down with a long-term illness, quite clearly I could not handle it.
I spent the morning crying about how sick I feel. Other women handle this, why can't I? I hate self-pity but I'm wallowing in it right now. I don't even give a shit that I'm having a baby, all I care about is making it another day. 6-8 more weeks of this. One of my midwives dropped off a care package on my doorstep with Nux Vomica, ginger tea, b-6, and orange oil to smudge under my nose. She didn't ring the doorbell or anything, it was so sweet I am, of course, crying. Very rarely does someone other than my spouse do anything like that for me, it's nice.
God I hate myself right now.
I spent the morning crying about how sick I feel. Other women handle this, why can't I? I hate self-pity but I'm wallowing in it right now. I don't even give a shit that I'm having a baby, all I care about is making it another day. 6-8 more weeks of this. One of my midwives dropped off a care package on my doorstep with Nux Vomica, ginger tea, b-6, and orange oil to smudge under my nose. She didn't ring the doorbell or anything, it was so sweet I am, of course, crying. Very rarely does someone other than my spouse do anything like that for me, it's nice.
God I hate myself right now.