My triumphant return to LJ
I'm back!! Did you miss me? ;)
I finally got around to changing up me theme a bit. Definitely gonna need more work, but I'm happy with the way it is for now. I wanna make some cool glitch art as a header image and maybe some icons and shit.
I really wanna spend more time on LiveJournal because I like the way it makes me take my time. I write full length journal entries and spend time and effort on my icons. I'm unhappy about this new like button bullshit. I want to make a shirt that says DOWN WITH LIKE BUTTON CULTURE. I also want to make one that says NANG FIEND but who knows when I'll get around to it.
Since I've not written in a while sooooo much has gone on, but right now I'll start with the most exciting thing: I'm a VJ now!! Hahahahahahaha!! My first gig was at the Fang Halloween Ball last week, and Fyo and did it together, so Holy Machines is now a thing!! VJs are so thin on the ground and the standard is so low that people are amazed by anything even remotely interesting. Frankly I was happy to be at a goth club and not have to watch that same fucking Disney cartoon of the dancing skeletons on repeat again.
I've also started a new relationship with the aforementioned Fyo, which is interesting in many ways, as well as changes in my relationship with Rory. I had plans to move out with Dylan and Conor for a while but after some thought I decided maybe a better course of action was for me and Rory to have seperate rooms. Rory, however, doesn't want a room, he wants to live in his new Sprinter so I've been stressed out over having all his shit still in my room on top of everything else.
Everything else being: directing not one but TWO grad films (one of which I wrote and was inspired by some shit that happened with my mother as a teenager so it's not exactly a hayride), all the other school assignments I need to work on, launching crowdfunding campaigns for said films, pursuing a new relationship with someone who's mental health is quite likely more chaotic than mine, reconnecting with my father, dealing with memories of my mother, dealing with other people's families and the feelings they bring up, my shrink retiring, my GP suddenly fucking off overseas without telling me or writing a new prescription for my anti depressants, and whatever the fuck else I've forgotten to write about.
On the plus side, my stupid fake boobs are gone and i feel SO MUCH better. I feel way more comfortable in my body, I can wear whatever I want, I don't feel sick when I move and I can feel my shirt or my arms touch my boobs. I can be out in public again without feeling crippling anxiety. I'm kind of fucking peeved that i ended up spending $18 000 on some admittedly cool-ass scars but i'm trying to look at it as an important lesson in ownership and accepting my body. $18 000 would buy a lot of tattoos though.
Tonight the Big Fucking Robots have another gig but I think I'd rather stay home and have a night to myself. We're filming a short scene for an assignment tomorrow and I get to direct Fyo in it >:D so I need to prepare myself, but I'd also like to spend some time catching up on movies and/or writing in my LJ. I really prefer the layout and attitude of LJ, though I wish I could convince some of my favourite Tumblr mutuals to join as well.
So yes, I have returned triumphantly to this strange, crumbling ruin of a website to reside amongst those who dwell amongst the long form writing and CSS coding. I like it. If I can ever decide on a username I like I might try Dreamwidth again since I don't fucking trust Putin and his bullshit.
Oh by the way, if anyone knows of any good friend memes going around, please let me know! I've met some cool cats here through memes and I would love to get to know more!!
I finally got around to changing up me theme a bit. Definitely gonna need more work, but I'm happy with the way it is for now. I wanna make some cool glitch art as a header image and maybe some icons and shit.
I really wanna spend more time on LiveJournal because I like the way it makes me take my time. I write full length journal entries and spend time and effort on my icons. I'm unhappy about this new like button bullshit. I want to make a shirt that says DOWN WITH LIKE BUTTON CULTURE. I also want to make one that says NANG FIEND but who knows when I'll get around to it.
Since I've not written in a while sooooo much has gone on, but right now I'll start with the most exciting thing: I'm a VJ now!! Hahahahahahaha!! My first gig was at the Fang Halloween Ball last week, and Fyo and did it together, so Holy Machines is now a thing!! VJs are so thin on the ground and the standard is so low that people are amazed by anything even remotely interesting. Frankly I was happy to be at a goth club and not have to watch that same fucking Disney cartoon of the dancing skeletons on repeat again.
I've also started a new relationship with the aforementioned Fyo, which is interesting in many ways, as well as changes in my relationship with Rory. I had plans to move out with Dylan and Conor for a while but after some thought I decided maybe a better course of action was for me and Rory to have seperate rooms. Rory, however, doesn't want a room, he wants to live in his new Sprinter so I've been stressed out over having all his shit still in my room on top of everything else.
Everything else being: directing not one but TWO grad films (one of which I wrote and was inspired by some shit that happened with my mother as a teenager so it's not exactly a hayride), all the other school assignments I need to work on, launching crowdfunding campaigns for said films, pursuing a new relationship with someone who's mental health is quite likely more chaotic than mine, reconnecting with my father, dealing with memories of my mother, dealing with other people's families and the feelings they bring up, my shrink retiring, my GP suddenly fucking off overseas without telling me or writing a new prescription for my anti depressants, and whatever the fuck else I've forgotten to write about.
On the plus side, my stupid fake boobs are gone and i feel SO MUCH better. I feel way more comfortable in my body, I can wear whatever I want, I don't feel sick when I move and I can feel my shirt or my arms touch my boobs. I can be out in public again without feeling crippling anxiety. I'm kind of fucking peeved that i ended up spending $18 000 on some admittedly cool-ass scars but i'm trying to look at it as an important lesson in ownership and accepting my body. $18 000 would buy a lot of tattoos though.
Tonight the Big Fucking Robots have another gig but I think I'd rather stay home and have a night to myself. We're filming a short scene for an assignment tomorrow and I get to direct Fyo in it >:D so I need to prepare myself, but I'd also like to spend some time catching up on movies and/or writing in my LJ. I really prefer the layout and attitude of LJ, though I wish I could convince some of my favourite Tumblr mutuals to join as well.
So yes, I have returned triumphantly to this strange, crumbling ruin of a website to reside amongst those who dwell amongst the long form writing and CSS coding. I like it. If I can ever decide on a username I like I might try Dreamwidth again since I don't fucking trust Putin and his bullshit.
Oh by the way, if anyone knows of any good friend memes going around, please let me know! I've met some cool cats here through memes and I would love to get to know more!!