Apr 19, 2006 22:37
When was my last update update, I feel it was a while ago
Lots has happened as per usual !
But the best lotsness has been watching Willam being an artist in our own home
ComicCreator Extrodonairre! Very much so , its been beautifull seeing him gradually becoming prouder and prouder of his wonderfull work...............The last few days have been yes ill admit, a tad stressing ........Today because i was feeling emo about a few things.........girl things i guess...........I wasnt as supportive to him as i could have been and i feel like grabbing a really big nife and self harming..............myself
sometimes this is when im at my emo ness most...............
I just hope he knows how fabulous he is and how proud i am of him and everything he has achieved , not just now he has his own stall at supernova but because he is following his dream and its coming true and ive seen it come true everyday since he speaks of it............
I just wish i was dn dn dn dn WONDER WOMAN dn dn dn dn dn WONDER WOMAN
i see my faults so much and i wish i could do things in perfect timing like a broadway musical........
Life isnt like that i know, but people create musicals with such hits as................and i wish i could belt out a tune in life to the same rythum, perfect dance and perfect timing............
fuck me for being such a fucking invalid.........
Laserforce oh my , well ............... i used to love it but now that place is a nemisis..........
Im thinking of becoming a true psyedonym
eg. robbin banks
workin forthemoney
(prostitute)
to keep my habit
which is
laserforce..............
I always remember len and karen saying , if u have any problems come and talk to us
well ive got a problem................
its both of u
Whats a young engaged lady to do ?
oh sound the broadway musical curtain call..........the last song of the evening..............a sad one?
well............no
Im not going to let shittyness in life defeat me...............
Happiness means to me feeding ducks for a whole day
or getting to watch 5 weekly movies for 5 dollars at home..............going for long walks for free..............
As Miss Janet Jackson and the late LutherVandross once sang.........The Best Things In Life Are Free
So , yes im very very emo about who and what i am as a success right now but one things for sure
i think i am beggining to realise im an
"ok" person
Maybe its a sign too, if i cant afford food then ill become skinnier and i know that side of me , with my "condition" will be very very happy...................lol