the hoff! u r so not cool now !
I am now not going to have BillyConnelly knocking on my door........I feel so productive!
DebtCollector no more ! Yes lol !
So im on an OPTUS PREPAID now, i still owe 140 dollars but i can pay this off in 3 months , which is wonderfull as i have a beautifull engagement party to save for and to me thats more important , than fucking polyphonic ringtone access!
Its honestly been an interesting past few days since the oscars......Will and I to be honest have had one or two squabbles........its ok now.......and it will always be ok since i love him unconditonally.........It was nice yet really guilty waking up thismorning thursday to him saying he is so sorry..........its funny sometimes when i get lots upset i wish for him to apologise......but when he does.......i hate the fact that this beautifull man apologises..........i know he is under lots of stress.........look i honestly am not going to put our personal items on live journal.........however.........I can be VERY difficult to live with
Im a sensitive young girl...........the peter pan who never grew up in a mature way ......... uno like dealing with different things, moods etc............
I think now i know why im hard to live with, i take things so personally...........but yet latley ive been really NOT doing this ! and well........im fucked i know it , and i never ever get angry !
but latley our "fights" ive been getting angry ...........because i am trying to appreciate the good things i do ............nevermind! but all in all we r ok ............ but god damn ! i wish i wasnt such a dickhead LOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got an email from my mother today , sometimes when she is sad she does bad things to herself.......and it scares me her low opinion of herself.........somedays im scared she wont be there............
Is her choice to feel bad about herself and ive learnt to seperate myself from how she feels and everyone in my life.......
like i know if i do wrong and im definetly the first to apologise!
but if i know its not me , then i dont do that anymore i dont make it about me............
Uno, life and love is hard..............whoever said it, its the truth
but ive never chosen to belive in that!
i see its merits but i will NEVER see that comment as the be all and end all...........
But i tell u its shit when your heart hurts and u have pain
its shit shit shit shit
but if u find an outlet rather than fighting with someone or picking on someone, then thats part of love too.........
Stop the blame, stop the shit, sometimes i get so fucking angry at this world.........
like ok ! dont laugh but i read this thing today about DAVID HASSLEHOFF and apparently he bashed his wife and i think,
well david........instead of taking it out on your wife..........why didnt u appreciate what u had in your life and why didnt you develop like a drinking habit or make more bad cds LOL............
Im just soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo over people taking there shit out on other people...............
I do it sure................but i mean ! fuck , its gotta stop !
There are so much more important things in life, then waiting for a day to end!
fucking hell......just waking up, going through motions, piss it all off.........appreciate things!
Im trying and i am so angry at myself for numerious things, but shit man
My friend today someone in her life died who she was very close too..............and i hope she is ok, because she is such a wonderfull person and shes been through alot, but shes also stood up for herself........and i hope she knows how fantastic she is............she is beauty to me
shes been through stuff, shes known its not her fault, shes created a beautiofull family.........shes so admirable..............
I enjoy life, i love life, but help me god............i hope im good enough lol........but this question needs to be answered by myself and nobody else! anymore!
but
people by barbara streisand , will always still be my anthem!
DebtCollector no more ! Yes lol !
So im on an OPTUS PREPAID now, i still owe 140 dollars but i can pay this off in 3 months , which is wonderfull as i have a beautifull engagement party to save for and to me thats more important , than fucking polyphonic ringtone access!
Its honestly been an interesting past few days since the oscars......Will and I to be honest have had one or two squabbles........its ok now.......and it will always be ok since i love him unconditonally.........It was nice yet really guilty waking up thismorning thursday to him saying he is so sorry..........its funny sometimes when i get lots upset i wish for him to apologise......but when he does.......i hate the fact that this beautifull man apologises..........i know he is under lots of stress.........look i honestly am not going to put our personal items on live journal.........however.........I can be VERY difficult to live with
Im a sensitive young girl...........the peter pan who never grew up in a mature way ......... uno like dealing with different things, moods etc............
I think now i know why im hard to live with, i take things so personally...........but yet latley ive been really NOT doing this ! and well........im fucked i know it , and i never ever get angry !
but latley our "fights" ive been getting angry ...........because i am trying to appreciate the good things i do ............nevermind! but all in all we r ok ............ but god damn ! i wish i wasnt such a dickhead LOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got an email from my mother today , sometimes when she is sad she does bad things to herself.......and it scares me her low opinion of herself.........somedays im scared she wont be there............
Is her choice to feel bad about herself and ive learnt to seperate myself from how she feels and everyone in my life.......
like i know if i do wrong and im definetly the first to apologise!
but if i know its not me , then i dont do that anymore i dont make it about me............
Uno, life and love is hard..............whoever said it, its the truth
but ive never chosen to belive in that!
i see its merits but i will NEVER see that comment as the be all and end all...........
But i tell u its shit when your heart hurts and u have pain
its shit shit shit shit
but if u find an outlet rather than fighting with someone or picking on someone, then thats part of love too.........
Stop the blame, stop the shit, sometimes i get so fucking angry at this world.........
like ok ! dont laugh but i read this thing today about DAVID HASSLEHOFF and apparently he bashed his wife and i think,
well david........instead of taking it out on your wife..........why didnt u appreciate what u had in your life and why didnt you develop like a drinking habit or make more bad cds LOL............
Im just soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo over people taking there shit out on other people...............
I do it sure................but i mean ! fuck , its gotta stop !
There are so much more important things in life, then waiting for a day to end!
fucking hell......just waking up, going through motions, piss it all off.........appreciate things!
Im trying and i am so angry at myself for numerious things, but shit man
My friend today someone in her life died who she was very close too..............and i hope she is ok, because she is such a wonderfull person and shes been through alot, but shes also stood up for herself........and i hope she knows how fantastic she is............she is beauty to me
shes been through stuff, shes known its not her fault, shes created a beautiofull family.........shes so admirable..............
I enjoy life, i love life, but help me god............i hope im good enough lol........but this question needs to be answered by myself and nobody else! anymore!
but
people by barbara streisand , will always still be my anthem!