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alright....so I've spent about the last 13 years of my life "preparing" for college, and am now in the process of spending the next 6-8 years of my life continuing to "prepare" for a completely uncertain future. I'm really not sure what this ultimate goal is we're so fixated on, and I have this picture of finishing college and having this degree, and wondering where the first 30 years of my life went. I don't think I'm going to let that happen. I'm going to study art if I want to, and frankly I don't really care if that's "practical". I'm going to start really taking advantage of the fact that this is the most beautiful place in the world, beyond just looking at it while I run to class. I'm going to start really talking to all these interesting people instead of getting annoyed that they're breaking my concentration. and more than anything, I'm going to just lighten up. It's not that I'm against college, but I really think I was missing the point. Learning the facts is only a fraction of this. The experience now, and not always putting off living until some undefined future, is important too. I still want the degree, but not at the price of my entire youth or worse my spirit.