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When I was little, and had a project to do or a paper to write and i didn't want to do it, I would combined what i liked to do with what i had to do. I would dress up as a secratary(if it was a paper to be written) or an artist(if it was a crafy project), etc. and then i felt more "in character" and i would focus better on the task at hand...aka my work. I used to dress up as a maid or servant when i had to clean my room. It made it much more enjoyable. sPorts? I used to place my hair up in a high, bouncy ponytail that would make me feel more energentic and in the sporty mood. Oh how i miss being 7. See, I find it so hard these days to keep my modivation up. Since I grew up pretending to be a secratary or someone else and playing their part like on a tv show and they had to do the work that i actually had to do, i find it to write papers i need to be in "a mood"... if i'm distracted, I get up and neatly brush my hair into a low bun and put on my glasses. I seemed more focused,..i know its all physcological but it works. IT's just the way i'm used to doing things. If i need to be energized for cheerleading, i put my hair up in a high bouncy swingy ponytail...i just have to. If i feel it, I can do it. So thus is why i simply cannot do my english paper tonight, or a lot of things. I feel as if I can no longer "pretend" if you will, or get in"character" or mood to do something. I just hafta do it....resposibility or something like that..I used to make up someone who was responsible. *sigh* i just can't do that anymore and it makes me sad.
I tried to explain this to jessie today, about how i will focus better and get back on track if i reoginize my binder (the character of a better student etc.) and wear my glasses and put my hair back and she didn't getit. She laughed and said that it was the lamest excuse she ever heard for not doing english...and i've come up with a lot of really lame ones :\ sometimes i wish people could get insdie my brain to see what i mean. I need to do this sometimes, and i don't care what you say if its an excuse or not its something i have to do. I need that mode, that extra person so they can do it, and i can not stress. its strange but i needed to get that out. explain it somehow.
Well if you do something similar i'd love to hear it, it'd make me feel better about not being so strange and all lol. leave it. <3
*sigh* yes now i am going to go do english homework, and chemistry, and history, and spanish. lovevly.
I tried to explain this to jessie today, about how i will focus better and get back on track if i reoginize my binder (the character of a better student etc.) and wear my glasses and put my hair back and she didn't getit. She laughed and said that it was the lamest excuse she ever heard for not doing english...and i've come up with a lot of really lame ones :\ sometimes i wish people could get insdie my brain to see what i mean. I need to do this sometimes, and i don't care what you say if its an excuse or not its something i have to do. I need that mode, that extra person so they can do it, and i can not stress. its strange but i needed to get that out. explain it somehow.
Well if you do something similar i'd love to hear it, it'd make me feel better about not being so strange and all lol. leave it. <3
*sigh* yes now i am going to go do english homework, and chemistry, and history, and spanish. lovevly.