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today i got an e-mail saying that i have been nominated as an outstanding writer by my former creative writing professor. the e-mail asked me to read my writing in the undergraduate library for 5-10 minutes in front of an audience. i never thought i would get that kind of acknowledgment about my writing, and it makes me feel great and excited. but at the same time i'm having a hard time picturing myself reading in front of people and i don't know if i can do it. i think it would be really fun and make me feel good about my writing if i could get over being so anxious about reading my writing aloud. the more i think about the things i want to do with my life the more and more i want to write a book and have it published. it's just so hard for me to feel confident in my writing that i can't imagine ever having a manuscript i would be comfortable letting other people read. maybe i can practice a lot and this can be my new year's resolution.