all you need is love.....?
well its that time of year again....the one that i hate the most. valentines day! it's just a wonderful reminder that im as lonely as ever and thats never going to change.valentines day is a constant reminder that im alone. It didnt bother me when i was little.We would make those cute little cubby things which would attached to our desks. At the right time we would scatter around placing power ranger and beauty and the beast cards along with candy into the cubbys of our peers.And oh the JOY when I would make it home after school and dump out the fat bag containing a plethora of cards and chalk tasting hearts.I lived for that shit back then. But now things are different. I knew when puberty hit and all the other girls started going on dates that eventually that would happen for me but here it is my senior year, and no singing valentines, or emo love song filled mixtapes, no roses, or candle lit dinner. I dont need all that shit just the person. A piece of my heart feels sooooooo very happy for those of you who get to enjoy this mockery of a holiday, but yet a HUGE chunk of my hole of a heart feels nothing but sadness.Why cant people do special valentinsey things for people everyday!? Why do people only use this halmark-invented holiday to show people that they care? And why doesnt anyone do it for me? When will the world running around me realize that I, Emily Rose (YUCK!) Newton is worthy of love? When will it realize that I would like a fucking box of chocolates? A hug, a kiss, a lover? When will the world or that special someone realize that I am there long lost punk rock girlfriend? Ill do anything to find love i guess. maybe i have found it. but it Refuses to find me.
everyone have a great vday.
everyone have a great vday.