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well its been one of those weeks.....shit! i've been up and down all week. alot of it was up but there have been my down times. why do i always seem to be able to piss EVERYONE off.....so what i'm loud! if u dont like it dont have anything to do with me....otherwise get used to it cos its a part of me and i'm here to stay. i keep on doing the wrong things and everyone always tells me...sometimes its better to let me find my mistakes for my self insted of being told straight away and feeling like such a stupid twat! i'm confused as to whether a certain person actually likes me as in one ear i'm told he does but i dont know and then i didnt listen when someone else mentioned it (its called getting geo homework done the break before the lesson!!!) and so i dont know whats going on as all i say is "hey" everytime i walk past this "someone" so i have no idea whether they like me or not. its all confusing for me.....lifes better being single and not having to worry about all this that others are having to deal with. i've seen too many relationships go BANG to know that i dont want one like that! anyway ...lets move.
a flipping good night i had last night with a whole bunch of people that none of u know except Kat who knows Grant ....but i shall tell all anyway! i started off down the snooka club with a mate but i didnt like anyone else down there as i was only really hoping to see this "someone" and i dont think he was going down. also i wanted my hat off russell....really weird now! and so after i had bumped into my mate stacey we pissed off and spoke to shane (Brown) and then went to find some other mates to get sum alkihol (as you do!!) and we did indeedie find some friends. we met Frankie, Troy , grant and sum guy chaz and they kindly bought us some booze (with our own money!!) and then we went back to the snooker club to find no-one interesting there. we soon left and found that shane had decided he would come with us....he was actually being really nice! then in town he left us and we continued our travels to the park (wooooo.....not!) and then just to bum about there. we got a little worried when the police turned up so i did my innocent personality and as soon as they got near us i piped up and said "are we making too much noise?" the lovely police guy explained that there had been sum cars smashed and thye were checking up here. i told them that the only reason we were here was because they were all walking me home and they were satisfied and left....just informing us that they were checking to see....so no i wasnt in trouble. and the main thing i checked when they were walking up was that no-one had booze (as at least 4/5 of us were under 18) and that we were all over 16 anyway so they couldnt get us for smoking or anything...at least they were only fags at that moment! we left and soon got joined by shane which was when i was tackled and pinned to the ground (wet muddy grass....NICE!!) and it smelt of dog shit so i fought the best i could and soon got up. we then moved on up the field of grass near mine and then i got told that i was t give shane a piggy back but as he jumped on the heavy lump wouldnt get off so i fell back wards on the grass as i knew i'd just be landing on him....tee heehee..... very funny positions at that point. i eventually walked throught my front door an hour late and my rents were just like "oh u missed me changing my bandage and seeing my hand" to which i reply "good!!" and walk off! then to bed stinking of smoke from the "snooker club".....sleep
got up and did jack shit.....untill my mum and dad went out then i decided to have a shower and get dressed. then did ironing and got moaned at cos i refused to iron trousers which need a crease and to iron shirts cos i'm so shit i cant do them!! mum was making xmas cards and i decided that i was going to do sum too.....they are soooo cute and diddy! will give a few out....i dont do xmas cards...!! had dinn dinns and came online. just wanna say sorry emma.....am knackered and i didnt really mean what i said! i do love you but i do care about u and i dont want u getting hurt and we have different views and i can understand urs!
anyway....am listening to coheed and putitng the vines onto mini-disk so i can listen to them all the time! YAY! its 10.31 and put it this way...i want to sleep!! so will finish now on the note "2 full days to go!!", just hope u guys give me a good day as i want it to be one to remember!!
love to you all especially emma!! speak soon and hoep to see those who i havent seen for ages sum time soon!
hugs and kisses to spread xxxxxx mwah xxxxx