Don't let me go.
I want to go for a swim.
I stick my toe into the water. I test the temperature. It seems warm enough. With trepidation, I take it a step further and slowly dipped my leg into the water.. Suddenly the temperature drops and the water is left freezing cold. Petrified, I pull my leg out of the water fast. I sit by the side of the pool to wait for the right time to try again. I sit by the side of the pool to wait for the courage that I so carefully mustered to come back to me again.
After all, I do want to go for a swim.
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I know this is not a good sign.
A year spent with a player, I know this is not a good sign at all. I've learnt enough. I've learnt that what happens after today are nights of crying, sobbing, wailing, weeping, and questioning why the fuck did this happen, did I let this happen. I wasn't supposed to do this right? Where did the wall I build around me go?
After yesterday, all I want is the simple life. When everything was simpler... No such bullshit happening. I know I have faulted, I did some wrong things. Is karma coming back to haunt me?
Why did I let my guard down?
Why did I let somebody let me go from such great height... again?
I stick my toe into the water. I test the temperature. It seems warm enough. With trepidation, I take it a step further and slowly dipped my leg into the water.. Suddenly the temperature drops and the water is left freezing cold. Petrified, I pull my leg out of the water fast. I sit by the side of the pool to wait for the right time to try again. I sit by the side of the pool to wait for the courage that I so carefully mustered to come back to me again.
After all, I do want to go for a swim.
xx
I know this is not a good sign.
A year spent with a player, I know this is not a good sign at all. I've learnt enough. I've learnt that what happens after today are nights of crying, sobbing, wailing, weeping, and questioning why the fuck did this happen, did I let this happen. I wasn't supposed to do this right? Where did the wall I build around me go?
After yesterday, all I want is the simple life. When everything was simpler... No such bullshit happening. I know I have faulted, I did some wrong things. Is karma coming back to haunt me?
Why did I let my guard down?
Why did I let somebody let me go from such great height... again?