bitching ranting shitting, rambling, fuuuuuug; don't bother
i listen to music too loud.
i woke up yen from her sleep once... and she had a hard time going back to sleep.
i use the radio transmitter to play music from my laptop to tien's radio. i used it while cleaning the bathroom.
(that transmitter was $20. my primary reason when i bought it was to listen to my iPod in the car. but it sucks so much with all the static. i wasted money on that. i should've bought a hands free phone headset thing... :P)
then just now, i'm working on graduation stuff, not studying for finals... =__= i spent $40 on supplies and candy. fuuug... i'm making candy leis for yen and tien and whoever i see @ the bio graduation commencement on friday. am i wasting my time and money and not prioritizing my time? =P
i used tien's radio again and she just told me to turn it down a bit. i would've used my iPod but the it died. friggin piece of craaap!
man... i feel like a jerk. piece of craaap.
freagin' university court apartment walls are freagin' thin. i hope le tournesol has better, thicker walls. i hope i don't bother my and megan. hmm... it'll be interesting winter quarter.... he he he
i don't like it when i'm bothering people. it just hurts meeeeeeeeeeeeeeh! haha =___=;;
it friggin hurts the self esteem, man.
i think that's why i avoid a lot of contact and shit.
i'm a loner and it's a fact.
booooo...
boo for low self esteem.
cursed!
just hide it with a smile. smile and nod. smile and nod....
i'm screwed up in the head. :D
but i'm starting to get sick of the facade. >:P
i think i freaking care too much. n/m i'm just giving myself an excuse not to study. i'm overconfident in my FOOD SCIENCE AND COMPUTER SCIENCE finals. shiiit.
am i wrong? or am i just looking at the glass half empty.
when i try to reason my actions, i tend to look down on myself.
shiiiiit.
i kind of don't really want to go to the grad commencement. i hate being in large crowds... especially by myself. i get nervous, turn red, get hot, sweat, people see it, embarass... >:O as of right now, i'm going by myself. i'm staying until friday when i actually finish wednesday. but it's a big event for tien and yen, my roomies and two closest friends in davis.
but then, i had to skip erin's graduation b/c of finals... that's when i learned that i don't have to be a part of everybody's life... or at the important events, anyways... i don't have to always be there for them... because "they won't do that for me."
damn shit fuck bitch ass...
sorry, i'm just irritated how life is so bitchy. haha :P
where is jesus. i need to talk to him. XD
wwjd
"i wish it were the end of the world tomorrow."
this is a common statement made by lots of stressed out people. they say it so they don't have to face the world and reality of tomorrow.
it's that feeling of "leave me alone!" <-- LONER stats
whatever! haha deep down, they don't want it to happen. ;D
that's the loser's way out anyway.
just live it.
shit.
i have a whole lot of catching up to. it's the shit.
i owe people so much.
i lag so much.
fuuuug.
okay, anyway. that's enuff ranting.
time to get back to doing something...
i can never make up my mind.
i'm always torn between the sides...
i woke up yen from her sleep once... and she had a hard time going back to sleep.
i use the radio transmitter to play music from my laptop to tien's radio. i used it while cleaning the bathroom.
(that transmitter was $20. my primary reason when i bought it was to listen to my iPod in the car. but it sucks so much with all the static. i wasted money on that. i should've bought a hands free phone headset thing... :P)
then just now, i'm working on graduation stuff, not studying for finals... =__= i spent $40 on supplies and candy. fuuug... i'm making candy leis for yen and tien and whoever i see @ the bio graduation commencement on friday. am i wasting my time and money and not prioritizing my time? =P
i used tien's radio again and she just told me to turn it down a bit. i would've used my iPod but the it died. friggin piece of craaap!
man... i feel like a jerk. piece of craaap.
freagin' university court apartment walls are freagin' thin. i hope le tournesol has better, thicker walls. i hope i don't bother my and megan. hmm... it'll be interesting winter quarter.... he he he
i don't like it when i'm bothering people. it just hurts meeeeeeeeeeeeeeh! haha =___=;;
it friggin hurts the self esteem, man.
i think that's why i avoid a lot of contact and shit.
i'm a loner and it's a fact.
booooo...
boo for low self esteem.
cursed!
just hide it with a smile. smile and nod. smile and nod....
i'm screwed up in the head. :D
but i'm starting to get sick of the facade. >:P
i think i freaking care too much. n/m i'm just giving myself an excuse not to study. i'm overconfident in my FOOD SCIENCE AND COMPUTER SCIENCE finals. shiiit.
am i wrong? or am i just looking at the glass half empty.
when i try to reason my actions, i tend to look down on myself.
shiiiiit.
i kind of don't really want to go to the grad commencement. i hate being in large crowds... especially by myself. i get nervous, turn red, get hot, sweat, people see it, embarass... >:O as of right now, i'm going by myself. i'm staying until friday when i actually finish wednesday. but it's a big event for tien and yen, my roomies and two closest friends in davis.
but then, i had to skip erin's graduation b/c of finals... that's when i learned that i don't have to be a part of everybody's life... or at the important events, anyways... i don't have to always be there for them... because "they won't do that for me."
damn shit fuck bitch ass...
sorry, i'm just irritated how life is so bitchy. haha :P
where is jesus. i need to talk to him. XD
wwjd
"i wish it were the end of the world tomorrow."
this is a common statement made by lots of stressed out people. they say it so they don't have to face the world and reality of tomorrow.
it's that feeling of "leave me alone!" <-- LONER stats
whatever! haha deep down, they don't want it to happen. ;D
that's the loser's way out anyway.
just live it.
shit.
i have a whole lot of catching up to. it's the shit.
i owe people so much.
i lag so much.
fuuuug.
okay, anyway. that's enuff ranting.
time to get back to doing something...
i can never make up my mind.
i'm always torn between the sides...